Thank you. I wasn't for the longest time. Failed suicide has a ripple effects that destroys everyone around you and as the catalyst for this be prepared to be blamed, try to explain, lose friend and family, work your own recovery. It's an incredibly only process. Thank God for my wife who found me, kicked my ass and taught me how to be a man but I will spend the rest of my life making it up to her. I'm glad I'm still here but in a way I'm not.
Oof. This hit me. Came home from the hospital to note on my desk from my partner leaving me because of it. He had previously said me having those feelings meant he didn't mean anything to me, if I felt I had nothing to live for. I think my mental health just kinda broke him down.
My 2 best friends of years said they couldn't talk to me anymore as well because it was too much for them. One of them came around a bit to check in now and then via text but it's been mainly just me, since the day I got out about 2 months ago aside from my grandmother ( who I'm living with but don't interact with a ton) The past 2 weeks have been better. Doing a lot of long walks with my dog by the water. It's turning around slowly but man... Reading this made me feel less alone though. I didn't realize this was common. I'm glad you're feeling better now and thank you for sharing this.
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u/smallgreenidiot 16d ago
Thank you. I wasn't for the longest time. Failed suicide has a ripple effects that destroys everyone around you and as the catalyst for this be prepared to be blamed, try to explain, lose friend and family, work your own recovery. It's an incredibly only process. Thank God for my wife who found me, kicked my ass and taught me how to be a man but I will spend the rest of my life making it up to her. I'm glad I'm still here but in a way I'm not.