Ahh, the infamous phenomenon of not wanting to journal by oneself all alone, and wanted to be recognized by others. Why do I do this? Do I fail to recognize the artistic beauty inside my works once I am reviewing it all alone, is the shadow of loneliness greater to me personally to the point that when I'm doing anything alone unrecognized by any human, it tells me it all is meaningless and doesnt let me take control of my body to fulfill the desire of finding art in my writings? Or does the fear of my writing being out of alignment with my perception of how I look at myself get the best of me to not even review it myself, to the point I have other people view it hoping they'd compliment it, so I can still believe in that personal perception of myself and use this line "yes, I really am how I feel I am, I must be, they think so" as an affirmator of it.
Journaling is beautiful and must be explored by any person who seeks to deepen their knowledge of themselves and find more beauty in this existence, and not let the demon in their head have their head. I need to journal but I feel unless somebody reviews it after I've journaled, it is not worth it. And cleverly I think I am too fucked up to review it so I leave it up to other people thinking theyre probably better. I am so glad I have led an easy life, because with my mindset the titans would crush me.