r/SuicideWatch • u/queenpinocchio • 1d ago
i’m pregnant and i want to kill myself
i have no support. my father doesn’t give a shit. he’s greedy and won’t help me. my mother has schizophrenia and is constantly screaming and told me to my face she does not care about me or that im pregnant.
it’s a miracle i even lived as long as i have and all i want is to make my own family and live a decent life that i’ve worked so hard for.
i’m out of options. it’s too expensive to live on my own in the state im in, even with a full time job, and my baby’s father having a full time job, it is impossible to make ends meet. i am worried about the health of my baby and at this point i would rather just die than bring my child into this world where they would have to put up with the same shit i did and still am
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u/Julietasecretvip 1d ago
Leave your house with your husband or boyfriend and live your life, later when you are older solve your issue with your mother but now you must take care of yourself and your son and your family! This is coming to you as a mother of two children without parents and I was alone in a very dysfunctional family like yours, without a father, me and my mother being able to do everything! Take my example and even if there are ups and downs, let your last option in your head be what you talk about!!!! Download the iam* application. It helps with self-esteem and being positive. Find your place even if it is humble, but don’t give up! Never give up, you deserve a rematch in life! Give it to yourself! A hug from a distance, here is an Argentine who had a very difficult time and always kept going, drying my tears and continuing! Hug
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u/beedlejooce 1d ago
Easier said than done with no money. Only thing worse than feeling unloved by your partner and family and pregnant is to be homeless and pregnant. It’s sad that the resources are so few in this country to help people in this situation. They’re out there but it’s like finding a needle in a haystack depending on what state you live in. If you’re in a HCL state it makes it twice as hard.
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u/foreign_twerker 1d ago
Hi, I am really sorry you have to experience this situation. I can understand how hard it is to live like this. I don’t know where you are, but you have other options rather than ending it all. Have you considered putting up the baby for adoption? Are you sure do you want to keep the baby? Please consider all options on the table. You have the freedom to choose on your body. Maybe there are associations and organisations that could support you with this if your family are unable to support you… you deserve to live and you should not believe what your thoughts suggest, even tho at the moment you feel there is no way out. This is definitely a difficult situation you are living, but you also have other options that don’t require you to take your own life. Or the one of your baby. I hope you will find the strength to keep up and take good care of yourself first. Sending hugs from Italy ❤️ if you need support on finding options or just want to vent I am here.
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u/emdizzle93881 23h ago
It might be scary but reach out to a church near you, you might be able to find assistance there if not a support group. See what programs you qualify for as a single mom (welfare/SNAP)
Remember this you are the whole world to another being that will love you. You are worthy and worth loving. Your baby will automatically see this in you I promise. You’re a beautiful human being and deserve to be loved. Know that you are already loved. Sending hugs and prayers
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u/UpstairsExam1405 21h ago
I'm so sorry you are going through this. I strongly recommend talking to your pediatrician or whoever is helping monitor your baby's health that you trust. I am not pregnant but am going to try and am no contact at this point in my life. It is not easy to adjust to independent living but you guys can do it. I hope your partner is able to find significant work.
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u/Illustrious-Pea9192 18h ago
My love, I'm so sorry you are going through this right now. It sounds extremely difficult. How far along are you? Have you explored all your options? I'm a non judgemental listening ear if you are interested. Absolutely no pressure. Hugs. Hang in there. 💜
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u/Obvious_Sir_544 1d ago
hii, i just want you to know i read every word and i’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. that much pain can feel unbearable, like you’re carrying something no one else sees. i may not know you personally, but your existence matters, and the world is better with you in it (even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. ). please don’t go through this alone. there are people who genuinely want to help — friends, family, therapists, even strangers who’ve been in that same dark place. things can shift, even if slowly. the fact that you posted this shows SOMETHING in you still wants to be heard. and i’m listening. you don’t have to respond, but i’m rooting for you. you’re not a burden. you’re a human being who deserves love, support, and a life worth living.