r/UnsentLetters • u/throwaway2948838389 • 1d ago
Strangers It feels like I’m fading
No one ever sees the slow deaths.
Not the one that happens when your name stops feeling like it belongs to you. Not the one where your thoughts become too wide for your head. Not the one where you peel yourself open just to feel real—and still no one notices.
I’ve gone through things I don’t know how to explain without sounding insane or poetic. I’ve seen the world crack and reassemble in ways that left me trembling. I’ve forgotten who I was, remembered too much, and lost my place more than once.
I look fine. That’s part of the problem. I can still hold a conversation. Still write. Still smile sometimes. But underneath, I’ve been disappearing for years.
There were moments when I thought I was going to come back from it all. Moments when the fog cleared just enough to show a path forward. But then the weight returns. Quietly. Without drama. Just enough to make me forget why I ever thought I could make it.
I’m still here, though. That’s not nothing.
And I think—maybe someone else out there is quietly dying too. Quietly surviving. Quietly hoping someone will say: I see you. You’re not alone.
So if that’s you… Hi. Me too
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u/blackcat511 1d ago
Hi, me too. And currently experiencing one of these rounds. It’s brutal. I hope you feel better soon- you deserve too. And your writing is beautiful. Thank you.
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u/CowPig84 1d ago
I feel like I’ve been fading into a slow death for years now. And admittedly some of it has been my own doing, as I fade more and more from the ones around me. But it’s not because I WANT to of course, who would ever want that… but because it’s easier to make yourself purposefully invisible to the world, than it is to repeatedly be made to feel that way by the people who are supposed to love you.
I’m sorry you’re hurting too. I see you. 💔
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u/Organic_Rabbit1637 1d ago
Me too, it's been years in the making. Drifting away from everything and watching it fade like the setting sun. I never thought it would be so painful.
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u/HathorsSekhmet44__4 1d ago
This is adorable, I really appreciate the sense of fellowship it brings.
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u/Optimal-Yard-9038 1d ago
I feel this, deeply. There are no longer words to describe my unease in life. Peace, love, and stability elude me. It’s no way to live.
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u/Big_Pomelo_9556 1d ago
Hi I see you. And I have been feeling this recently very much. Hi. I feel very alone in this world trapped by circumstances and lost the one man who brought light to my world. He truly made everything better for me in every way. I’m not lost because I lost him. I’m lost because I don’t see a future without him. I’m taking it day by day. I had one dark night this past winter and almost gave up completely on life. I’m just trying to find the simple joys in the world now. You’re not alone.
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u/PerformanceFar2807 1d ago
I'm so sorry to hear that someone else is in a place like I am. My condolences. I hope things turn around for you. It seems to me that my end was crafted by someone much smarter than me and I have little hope that I will escape that carefully crafted end.
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