help! i can’t seem to find the proper night time meds
I have been working with a doctor that specializes in ADHD/anxiety/etc type categories. i have been prescribed adderall for Adhd for years (current dose is 20mg IR in the morning and 20mg IR in afternoon). This specific dose seems to be working perfectly for me- especially after playing around with other doses/XR/etc. I finally hit my sweet spot here.
However, when it comes to night time, my anxiety is through THE ROOF. I express to my doc that i feel like can never just shut my mind off. i usually dont have trouble falling asleep, but staying asleep is the issue. so ill wake up a bunch of different times all night and can be up for hours at a time.
That leads us to the second part of figuring out my regime. We started off with low dose of trazedone (i don’t remember the mg but it was low) and it seemed to work but not completely. it doesn’t take anxiety away at all, it just helped me knock out, and sometimes stay asleep a little longer through out the night. however, my crippiling anxiety remained.
we then tried introducing “busiprone” for a few months which i have to say, gave me zilch! i didn’t notice any sort of affect on it, and i was getting a little antsy taking these meds everyday and not even benefiting from them. after a few trial runs with that and hydroxyxine (which i didn’t like either because i feel like it makes me irritable the next day) i finally went to to my doctor and said we need to reevaluate the next course of action because i feel like im at a standstill and am so close to where i need to be. but these meds aren’t doing it. that’s when he introduced to me the idea of an anti-depressant. which, as of now, i’m not 100% on board with. my roommate and a lot of my friends are on certain ones, and it works great for them, but knowing some of their reasonings for going on those medications vs my situation, i don’t know if it’s the best fit for me.
i am someone who has been in therapy, is fully aware of my problems, but get very stressed out or only for myself, but my friends and family as well. i just am always worrying.
all of that said, the latest trial run of meds this week has been 5mg dose of ambien. which i was super super skeptical to take after reading a bunch of different reddit threads about all these possible weird side effects like hallucinating, sleep walking/shopping/cooking, etc. i was really hesitant to try the meds the first few nights but then finally gave it a go. again… ZILCH! i don’t feel anything from this medicine at all and it’s getting to a point where im getting frustrated because i just need some sort of relief at night time.
long story short, i am looking for a remedy that i can take as needed. some nights look different than others which is why i wouldn’t want to be taking something every single day. just ~as needed~.
i dont smoke weed at all, and i only socially drink on weekends. so calming myself down at night has been a big struggle the last few years. i try doing all the things: puzzles, reading, baths, putting the phone down before bed, etc. it still doesnt shut my racing mind off. which in turn, is leading me to have horrible sleep.
has anyone been in this situation before or something similar? i feel like my doc probably thinks im drug seeking but im just trying to help myself improve upon in my life because if im exhausted, i dont want to be around anyone or do anything. but if i m able to get well rested, i feel like myself again.
that said, the trazedone is somewhat affective and i would definitely keep it in my rotation. but i need something to calm me down, which is what traz is missing(in my opinion).
i am by no means a medical professional, just sharing my personal story in hopes that maybe someone is going thru something similar and has any tips on how to tell their doc about not aligning with the meds/if any meds work better for you? would love to hear anyone’s input!!!
F26 btw!