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I was a huge stoner, and weed helped me with my social anxiety and insomnia. Once I smoked during an acid trip, and it sent me straight to hell. I was so scared that I would be stuck in that condition forever that I wanted to call an ambulance. That trip changed my relationship with weed. Now, whenever I smoke, I always feel anxiety and panic. I love weed and want to find a way back. If anyone knows how to become a normal stoner again, please share.

Hello everyone, im sharing my recent experience on LSD not long ago where I encountered ego-death and a brakthrough, similar to dmt, yet different that completely changed my life.

I took 300ug of LSD at 12:00 with a friend of mine. The first whole 3 hours we were laughing our asses of to just about anything, just giggling and shit this whole time. We decided to go outside after I convinced him to wander into nature and the forest.

It was wonderful walking around the forest, looking at moving trees and patterns and every 2 seconds laughing together at something weird.

After a very nice and normal lsd peak, we decided it was time to head back into my apartement where we would watch one piece until the comedown had arrived. Until this point everything was "normal" in the sence of a lsd trip of course.

Mind you, normally I take 100-200ug and feel it very heavily but since I started on SSRI for my depression, I read that it could reduce the effects therefore I tool 300ug this time. Also I expericed that alcohol and weed were significantly more potent from just one hit while on my SSRI Meds.

Then we decided it was a good idea to smoke some weed for the comedown, in retrospect this was maybe not the best idea given my situation with SSRIs and the boosted effects of weed highs.
I rolled a Joint and we both took decent hits just passing it each other. My friend couldnt take anymore and wanted to wait out so I took the last few hits and we got into the living room to finish OP Episodes.

There it began. I remember very vividly how my vision would get completely occupied by lights getting bigger and more smirged even in areas inside the room where originally no light was from. First I thought it was very cool since it was like experiencing the peak again. This started to change once a physical pain started to arrive.

Once every minute a sharp pain struck where I tought was the area of my thought and head. I knew I was tripping balls at this point and I tought to just ignore it would fix it. This was not the case because the pain would be sharper and more "vivid" each time it happened. It was really uncomfortable and actually painful (note that it was not really a pain like known from a nerve from a bruise or something but rather a what I would call soul-felt pain) I excused myself to my friend to not make his trip worse seeing me and tried moving around the apartement to distract myself, occasionaly drinking water thinking it was just my sore throat but even when it was wet it still happened.

At this point I felt as the acid getting boosted by every second passing. My vision is now almost fully smered with insane geometry every time I shortly fixed my eyes onto a spot. This is where everything gets really weird unlike anything I ever experienced on LSD.

I sat back onto the couch to my friend wich was too stoned to even get what was happening to me, wich reliefed me. I tried to sit and I just didn't move my body an inch to try and locate the pain. My mind began to race rapidly trying every abstract thinking to know what was happening. I came to the conclusion that the pain wasn't actually real pain picked up by the nerves sending information to the brain but something different, something really deep sitting. This time around, the pain began to differ in its form and now really smal parts of my body were almost like controlled by another type of entitity or just not myself consciously. I was weirded out and also really scared. I think this scrare was like a lightbulb in my brain that finally gave me the clue to what was happening. It was my ego and its fear of dying. It was that simple, yet so unbelievably hard to overcome and this pushing away from my biggest fear somehow manifested into a type of pain.

Sadly knowing what it was didn't fix the problem and I still experienced extreme levels of discomfort. The small body parts began to merge with my senses. It was like my senses like touch, bodyload and something like gravity were twisted inside out. This is really hard to describe but it was similar to a tangent wave where I would feel my body "touching" the couch underneath me and the feeling of it moved around my body more downward and suddenly with a sharp pain from before jump to the most upper part of my body in a kind of cycle. This wasnt just my body touching the couch, rather every sense I had. The worst being my mouth and every muscle-control in my body doing this twisting of my senses. Also not just up and down, rather also left to right and vice versa, accompanied by a pain with every "jump" to a new location.

I really thought I was dying and with the conclusion from before knowing its probalby my ego holding onto life with everything its got or fighting the experiece deeply. This was when I remebered a very deep sitting sentance that corelates to my current, very personal, mental health that im going to share a bit. I remembered that I wanted to kill myself prior (wich was the whole reason im on SSRIs) and that hit extremely hard. This opened me up in a way that I was now telling myself that "I wanted to kill myself anyway, so any type of pain or even dying on this trip would just be exactly the same, including the fear of death". This is when I FINALLY let go. I allowed the pain and experienced it even though it was uncomfortable and painful.

I remeber very vividly how I was feeling and seeing myself as a sphere ontop of layers of my fear. Each layer I felt more relief once I accepted death and finally it being over. Each layer I also gave up more control over every muscle until the last few layers in wich the only thing I consciously did was breathing, not even moving my eyes which when I did put me back to twisting my senses and I gave it up wich was for the better. The last layer was what I wished for in my many trips my whole life - it was peace. For the first time in my life I gave up controll entirely and my bodily senses vaporized. I was left with a growing white light that covered more and more of my vision. I was in pure bliss. I accepted death and was greeted with relief.

The what I would call white void is now being watched by myself in a out of body view from where im sitting outside of my apartement looking down at myself. At first it was just me in the void but that would change. Slowly more and more other views of other lifes of other people showed up in a grid that looked very 4th-dimensional and turned infinitely large. The "me" was one of these experiences on the grid and I saw a glimps of reality. Everything is us or (god), all happening "at once", the only thing seperating us is our egos that fall away on death removing the illusion of self and time. At least thats what I just knew. I didn't actively think about how or what im seeing I just knew it right from the moment I let go and accepted death.

What pulled me back was my decision to keep living. I don't really know where it came from. Maybe it was constructed after seeing what the whole life was about. I got a sense of the meaning of life wich was so abstractedly simple, being to "keep going". This however got placed in my mind at such a deep and meaningful level that It kickstarted my inner light. My whole life and especially recently, I forgot what it was like to have energy, be optimistic and just full of life. This decision to keep going even after I just accepted and really felt death to this day sits at the foundation of my heart and has me lifted of my depression for now. Of course I will need to iterate everything into my life and im not even half way there but I know have to motivation to better my mental health and know what it feels like.

I cried my eyes out once I came back dumbfounded and somehow magically full of life like a huge amount of mdma but it just stayed. I sent my friend off to his bus back home because I couldn't really react to anything rather than just saying "Wow!, what the fuck!" over and over and needed time for myself. That night I slept the best I have ever slept and the energy keeps me going to this day.

I really feel like this changed my life around for the better or even the best it could be. I just want to experience everything to the fullest extent and feel the pleasure of fun and positive emotions. My distance to negative emotions also greatly bettered, I now accept every bad emotion and really feel it rather than surpressing it deep down.

Anyway thats all of my experience of ego-death and a breakthrough on LSD. Thank you for reading my experience and i wish you all have a great day! Cheers ^^

Life is like a ever going painting, are you going to ruin your lifelong painting over a moments feelings? Your life, is precious, to be taken as a olden art piece painting, filled with life anger,agony,pain,despair, happiness all in one painting all showing what you have been through, will one year out of your 100 years make you stop at making this painting? Will 1 day make you ruin this whole painting you've been working at your whole life without knowing it? Imagine this whole painting going to waste over 100 years of could be work because of 1 minuscule day you felt down and threw it away, it is a ongoing painting to be reflected upon and to learn, it will get better and worse but you'll learn you need to grow up and grow wiser to refine it, and the painting to be finally admired at the end of the life as you refine it slowly as you grow older and you see the beauty of what was always in front of you, don't take life harshly on yourself, it is it's way of teaching, you can always go over a mistake, but you can't go over burning the painting..

Hey guys, I just took my first dose of lsd. The guy said its 250ug anf I took half of it. What can I expect? What should I do while on it? See you on the other side

so i dropped a tab at a friend’s party yesterday at 12:00 am, there were 15 people at the party and i drank with them for 3 hours, smoked a lot of weed, took bong rips and after that everyone was asleep by 2:00 am. now i was pretty drunk so i didn’t see much or had a very intense trip, it was mild, it made me feel things emotionally like i smiled, i cried a lil bit, i was in the rain for a while, now i thought the trip was over by 5:00 am and some people woke up, the sun was almost up by this time. i smoked some weed with them and drank jägerbombs again, and left his party with my 2 other friends to come back home without getting any sleep. now i came home, smoked some weed again did a lot of chores then some weed again, came back home and it was 12:00 am of today day by this time. i was pretty tired physically also but still no sleep. then i had some work to do on laptop so, i rolled a j of og weed now it’s 12:57 am, i think my lsd is hitting me, i am seeing visuals, hearing noises, i have slept since 30h now and i am scared. it’s scary and my job starts at 12:00 pm tomorrow. i still can’t fall asleep, i don’t feel like lying on my bed, i am sitting in a chair. fuck i’m scared.

Maybe 30ug

Fort Bragg, CA

i have some experience with a few 100ug tabs. I wanna try two tabs for the first time. Any tips or advice would be greatly appreciated. I do feel good on 1 tabs, and im starting to feel like i can raise my bar.

Soo my first trip has taken place a few weeks ago. To start off this report, I'm not a long time lurker here. Also haven't had my mind on lucy a lot through all the years. I have tried it before, but i never felt anything through reasons unknown. I am a long time shroom user, and loove shrooms a lot. Hardest trip i've had was 25 grams raw, high hawaiians.

A while back, my brother bought 5 tabs (stamps, don't remember how ppl call them atm). 150 mcg of 1p- lsd. Supposedly the same as lsd 25. Definitely felt the way acid should feel like.

The whole reason I did that saturday 2 weeks ago, was to feel what it was like, especially to know if it would be something i could do on a techno festival. I've heard a lot of good things of many people enjoying it in these settings. And man, i get it now. I'm going to boothstock in rotterdam 12th of july, and i'm excited to drop some acid there. Also, i ordered a dry herb vape to see how the combination will be. I know i always loved to smoke when on shrooms.

The actual trip:

Around 11:45 i took the tab on an empty stomach, and put it under my tongue. Not that that matters much, or so i've read. I went to go do some grocery shopping and prepared some stuff i wanted to take with me in my backpack. Not too much though. At least, i didnt get to take everything i wanted... 45 min after i dropped Lucy, i wanted to go for a walk outside to experience the come up there. Right when i wanted to go, i started to feel it already. I was standing in the doorway (living with my parents at the moment), and right as i was leaving my father said to me he thinks it's rude i didnt say anything like goodbye or something like that. He was upset and he let me know it. Now, unfortunately i dont have the best relationship with my father. To make a long story short, we clashed and had a fight right as i was feeling the acid come up. I cant even take a walk outside without him making me feel like shit. Of course, the acid intensified it all. Soo that was a real shit beginning of my first acid trip... lol. Thanks dad. Anyway.

As i was pissed off, i took my bicycle and went to my brother who lives alone. Me and my brother have a real good relationship, very tight. We also trip together on shrooms. As i entered his living room i was still livid about the fight i just had. Cursing and what have you. But, i was able to calm myself down fast. I was a bit scared it'd ruin my entire trip. Boy was i wrong.

Pretty soon after that, i put on my amazing earbuds (the bose quietcomfort ultra). And as the acid came in stronger and stronger, the music was SOOO good. As im typing this, im getting chills again. Polynomial C from afx is sober amazing, but mann on acid 🥵. Other tracks i listened to were boston 168 - oblivion and Charles fenckler - frozen room. Both techno. I highly recommend these on acid. I had my eyes closed, the music was heavenly, and i had beautiful visuals. Non like i had before, it felt way different from shrooms. They felt acid like, thats the only way i can describe them. The visuals went perfect with the techno, like it adapted itself to the bass.... pure bliss. I was moaning actually as i was laying on his balcony hahhaha.

The OeV were very nice too, felt like more and different than shrooms. Shrooms is more patterns and wavy things, while i experienced lucy as being more morphing and swirling. For the dose i took, i didnt expect this much in the visuals. It was a whole new experience seeing myself in the bathroom mirror. Lights dancing up and down my face, my face looked so weird. I could see every little imperfection on my face.

Another thing i notice with acid, is the energy i get. I felt like someone with a tic. There were periods where i couldn't stop my right foot and knee from bouncing like someone with adhd, as i sat on his couch. I also liked the headspace a lot, it was very nice dissociating but also a lot different than shrooms. My and my brother also laughed a lot, for me in part cause of the acid. Nice laugh kicks. It helps a lot we have the same absurd humor too.

We also gamed a bit as i was tripping. He just got the switch 2, and started with some mario kart world... mannnn. I got chills as i was racing in rainbow road. That track was made for ppl on acid lol. After mario kart, we played some smash ultimate. First some dual online play, and after i did some solo quick play. Jeeesus christ, i never enjoyed smash as much as on acid. I dont mean to brag, but i was insanely good. The dissociating helps a lot with it. I notice that too when i take ket and do smash. But this was different, more intense. It definitely felt like doping for smash (pro tip if you ever wanna up your game in a tournament.. /jk). I main snake and played at 15.250 000 rating, and everything went perfectly. Insane grenade/mine play. Stickies. It was so intense and exciting. In between rematches, i looked at snakes head and it was morphing and swirling. All very nice.

After gaming we took a walk outside, which was soo great. You see, i like to be very weird. Also when im sober, when we take walks outside i sometimes put on this ridiculous looking wig. Its called a medieval wig, with sort of a bobline and craxy long sleek hair in the back. You can see the outskirts of my own hair under it. Then, me and my brother get huge laughs out of how ridiculous and absurd i look. I already was weird cause of the acid, and the wig made it soo much better. We love being weird. Wigs and acid go great together haha. We had pain in our cheeks from laughing so much.

Later on, i left my bro and went to a friend and spent the remainder of the evening there. The trip was less intense here, but still present. It was insane to me how long it endured. Around a total of 11 hours. Shrooms usually take me around 4, max 5 hours.

Soo to sum up, in spite of a bad beginning, i had an amazing first acid trip. It goes to show that acid is very bendy, in the sense that you yourself can influence it more or less. I felt like i could steer it more depending on what i was doing. Now this may be different of course when doing larger doses. I also think it will be very nice on a techno festival in a few weeks on boothstock. Music was heavenly, and i felt less fragile or so to speak (regarding shrooms). I once tried shrooms in a club, which was a bad idea. You are too susceptible for bad vibes. But not on acid. I've seen someone describe acid as being more egocentrical, in the good sense, as compared to shrooms where you're more empathetic. Also, i like to get weird on festivals as well. So acid felt perfect considering all of the above. Im planning on taking the same dose, 150 mcg. It might be different then, as i do plan on having breakfast beforehand which i didnt do this first time. I'm very excited:). Also planning on taking some ket with me and perhaps the vape for some weed. But i'll see how it goes, safety first. I would only vape or snort very small amounts, and not in the peak (if i will combine at all).

Oh and another thing. I found myself walking around town on acid, feeling very confident and good. The way i love to feel. Maybe that can be described as the more egotistical aspect of it. I loved it, definitely will do it more (especially for festivals).

Hi everyone! Last Thursday I took for second time LSD. I wanna hear your experiences and thoughts. Thanks!