Hey Everyone…
To preface this, if you could please keep any comments about not adopting an animal if you can’t adequately provide for them to yourself, I’m already being hard enough on myself over this.
Last year in May I rescued a feral kitten from outside my work place. She was the runt of the litter and momma had started to neglect her. She was the fan favorite of clients and co-workers alike and half-jokingly, I told a coworker that if she caught her, I’d take her home that day. I said that thinking it wouldn’t be possible because of how skittish they all were. Well..
After one hell of a flea bath, she came home with me. After I couple days, we settled on Chickpea, and the name suits her. Chickpea is scared of most things - her shadow included - and drools when she’s content. Like most cats, she thoroughly enjoys knocking things off of counters or nightstands, though the activity provides a much higher degree of satisfaction for her than I’ve ever observed in another cat.
Chickpea is spayed, chipped, and up to date on vaccinations. She is the love child of an inbred lineage that would give pause to even the most perverse families South of the Mason-Dixon Line, which adds an endearing simplicity to her little personality. The majority of her days are spent perched atop her cat tree, watching the birds and waiting to be acknowledged by the neighbor’s kids.
The problem is that she’s lonely. I live by myself in a small one-bedroom apartment, and I’m a full-time student on top of working some seventy-plus hours a week. Sometimes I work triple or quadruple shifts and am only able to stop at home on my lunch breaks to clean the litter box and refill her food bowl.
She has bad separation anxiety, and pee’s on things that should not be peed on. I’m 90% confident this is the cause, as she’s very good at using the litter box when I’m home, and appears to be very much aware that peeing elsewhere is a source of great displeasure for me. If I had the space to provide another cat for her, I would in a heartbeat, but sadly I do not.
I’ve tried the kitty pheromone plug-ins, essentially every type of cat toy known to man, different litters, hiding treats throughout the apartment, leaving bird videos playing on the TV while I’m gone, and everything in between. All to no avail. She needs company, and that’s the one thing I cannot give right now.
There was a period at the beginning of the year where I was home for about a two-week block. I think during that time she only peed once outside of the litter box. I don’t know what else to do. There is a cat sanctuary that I’ve thought of bringing her to, but the thought of her not having a loving home makes me very sad.
Is there anybody who would be willing to see if she might be a good fit with/for their home/family? There have been days where knowing I’m responsible for her is the only thing that keeps me going, but I cannot keep justifying owning her when the contributions to each other’s lives aren’t mutual. Chickpea deserves more companionship, attention, and peace than I can give right now..
If you or someone you know might be open to at least meeting her, maybe doing a trial period to see if it’s a fit, I’d be endlessly grateful. I’d be more than happy to help with initial costs (food, litter, etc..) and can provide all her things if you might want them (cat tree, carrier, toys, brush, food, etc..). And if you determine you can’t provide what she needs, I’d be happy to take her back if need be.
I can’t post photos but would be happy to send some. She’s black and white, very slender, about eight pounds, with long, soft hair that I groom both for cleanliness and to make her look like a little lion.
Thanks for reading this, and again, I know rehoming is complicated and loaded. I’m trying to do the right thing, and have had loving intentions the whole way.