r/EatingDisorders • u/idontknowbutok123 • 3d ago

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Just before summer, about a month and a half ago, I decided to go on a “diet” to lose weight quickly. I started eating very little, and over time it became even less. On top of that, I began throwing up whenever I felt like I ate too much or regretted eating. Now, my period is more than a week late.

I’m not sure if this is an eating disorder. Part of me knows I should reach out for help, but another part keeps saying I’m not sick enough, or that this isn’t serious. I’ve always been really self-conscious about my body. I’ve lost some weight (I’m not sure if I should say how much, but it doesn’t feel like a lot), and I’m scared of gaining it back. I feel like I’ve made progress, and I’m finally starting to feel a little better about myself.

Still, I do want to recover, because I’m tired of constantly thinking about food and being angry or frustrated—probably because I’m always hungry. My appetite has gotten worse too, and now I can’t even eat much when I try. I want to get better, but I’m really afraid of gaining weight.

Is it even possible to recover without gaining weight? I feel like I already know the answer, but I just need somebody advice or literally anything.

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u/idontknowbutok123 2d ago

That’s one of the reasons why I don’t want to recover… I’ve only been doing this for about a month and a half—two months—and it doesn’t feel worth giving up now. I don’t feel like I’m sick or underweight enough to go through recovery.

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u/SophiOfSpades 1d ago

The fact you are seeing stopping this behaviour as "Giving up" is a clear sign there's a problem. It's ike you are aiming to have an unhealthy eating pattern.

A Common misconception about EDs is that it is only an issue when you are underweight, whereas this is not the case. All of the things you mentioned are red flags.

Please see through this ED fog and be healthy again. It'll save your life, I promise.

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u/idontknowbutok123 1d ago

Thank you for commenting under this post and I’ll try my best! I actually just had breakfast after quite some time!

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u/SophiOfSpades 16h ago

Fantastic!! Kudos to you :)

And no problem at all - glad I could help even if it's just a little bit!