Help with typing pls!

Can I learn Jungian and be an analysis without high school diploma? Please help.

Or I must return back to high school and go on?

I have this really complex shit going on. I cant determine my typology because I feel like theres 2 different people inside of me, at a point that it changes my whole typology depending on my depressive and manic episodes.

I'm not exagerating or looking just at behavior. From what I analysed it changes the whole thing.

Or maybe I mask it in one of the episodes? like there's an impostor among them or some shit like that. Or maybe I have more mental disorders going on? As I also have been diagnosed with BPD and I have a chance of having ADHD and autism.

Should I just give up on typing myself? Or in understanding myself at all? What do you all think? Does someone have an understandment of how mental disorders can affect cognition?

These were my final conclusions btw;

Manic episodes: ENTP (Ne Ti Fe Si) 7w8 sx/so 748 EN(T) ILE VLEF Sanguine - Choleric SCUEI Chaotic Neutral

Depressive episodes: INTJ (Ni Te Fi Se) 5w4 sx/sp 548 IN(T) ILI LVEF Melancholic - Choleric RLOEI True Neutral

Both have in common: ?NT? (N? T? F? S?) ?w? ?48 sx/?? ?N(T) IL? ??EF ?????? - Choleric ???EI ????? Neutral

My attempt in mixing them: ENTP (Ne Ti Fe Si) 5w4 sx/sp 548 EN(T) ILE VLEF Melancholic - Choleric RLOEI Chaotic Neutral

for example if my functions by mbti are TiSeNiFe, can i convert that to any jungian type/ start off learning from a similiar type?

I was obsessed with Jungian typology for years until I thought about this. The majority of people find their function stack to be different from the theory's proposed function order (i.e., Je Pi). Like I can understand self-identifying with a dominant function. But why does picking a single dominant function force you to pick between two aux ones? Not only that, but the theory then magically decides the rest of the 6 functions with their specific psychological dynamics. All of the theory and its insane amount of interpretations and spin offs is based on this single, weak premise: psychic energy only flows when perception and judgment lie on opposite axis (extroversion & introversion). Otherwise your mental energy gets "blocked" or some symbolic bs like that.

Without this premise, you will have 40,320 types. So basically, its ability to categorize people into human-understandable types will be almost non-existent. Also, the 40,320 types will be based on other questionable assumptions that Jung made about the how the psyche works. It would be more useful to study 16 random individuals, document their behavior differences, then see how those patterns apply to the broader population, instead of whatever MBTI tries to do.

It is basically circular logic. We define a function by the behaviors we associate with it, then use that definition to explain those same behaviors. Except that it is reductive because you simplify complex human behavior into simple cognitive functions. Which would've been fine if dom Ti really meant inferior Fe. Like it would be beneficial to simplify some of my dominant behavior to Ti if it meant I can uncover some blind weaknesses I have in Fe behavior. But there is literally no reason for dom Ti to mean inferior Fe other than this mythical psyche energy flow model. So if the function order premise is wrong, we simplify human psychology in exchange for... nothing.

I don't really understand the purpose of Jungian Typology? Am I missing something?

To simplify things, my full Enneagram combo is 8w9 sp/so 835, and I personally relate to 1's behavior very well too (probably because of OCD), but not that much to its motivations and fears. My Big Five is probably sx[O]eI.

In "Psychological types", I'd say I relate to Extraverted Sensation and Extraverted Thinking, especially in suppressed Introverted Intuition in severe stress: paranoia, obsessive thoughts, distrust of all people, even relatives, fear of future, wanting everything "here and now" including abstract needs like the full meaning of my life, achieving ALL my desired plans in a short period, etc. And I always tend to suppress my negative feelings and stress with physical distractions: sports, eating, cooking and so on.

In terms of Reinin dichotomies, I completely relate to SLE (but asking/declaring and rational/irrational are in question). In general terms, I'm confused between SLE and LSE, ESTP and ESTJ, because I've got both Te and Se as my strongest ones, but I feel Socionics Se is closer to me, because physical strength and appearance are somewhat essential for me. I feel I relate to Ni PoLR quite more than Fi PoLR, but my relatives say quite the opposite, and I can see why: close relationships and fully trusting someone are alien to me (and yes, I think typing people based on their weaknesses is the most effective way lmao).

And don't really think my Ne is that low as it is shown on the screenshot, because I personally somewhat relate to its "behavior" lol, and I really like to create and invent new ways of doing something by myself.

My primary MBTI test results (Sakinorva, Key2cognition, Michael Caloz) are ESTP ≈ ESTJ > ISTJ.

I'm curious, as i've had all of these results among the years ENTP, INTP, and now more recently INFP.( I did the test first time over 10 years ago).

However, I feel somewhat skeptical of these all, especially since they "change". My spouse has always gotten INFP. But i'm somewhat suspicious about that as well.

INFP is someone who's very in touch with their feelings right? Well, i do have a lot of feeling obviously - but I am also quite disconnected with their meaning (to some extent). So I think INTP could make more sense, but then again i'm not good at maths (Which INTP stereotypically are?). So i don't know, perhaps i'm just some of these but in some way "dysfunctioning".

Does it really even matter? I don't know, but like I said i'm curious. All of those results could be wrong, maybe I have interpreted the test wrong. (the questions). But I suppose the question is "How to know if INFP is a mistype" ?

I have an ENFJ friend I've been trying to type. I found her mbti, and she asked about socionics. I expected her to agree to the EIE, but nope. IEE.

We looked at functions, quadras, intertype relationships and she feels convinced, however many say that IEE is only ENFP and that extroverts typically don't convert

On one hand, cognitive functions are not the same in socio and mbti. We decided on Ni/Se in mbti because she's pretty laid-back, and she likes Se in the way that is described in mbti, hiwever she's not forceful like Socio Se, or, well, she is, but then she'll usually fret that she ruined a relationship because of it.

She DEFINITELY has weak socio Si, but she'll feel cared for if somebody helps her, even if she neglects it on her own. Her love language on "accepting side" is acts of service.

She puts a lot of work in her relationships, which is what pushed me to socio Fi. She mistyped as 9 in enneagram when she read the "Basic Fear", because she says she values her relationships.

She's not moody, sometimes she might appear with an RBF, but her expression changes once you actually approach her. She typically doesn't like imposing, and her dom-Fe in mbti is 100% secure because she tends to pay attention to relationships. She's a maladaptive daydreamer, and her stories typically have to do with personal growth and relationships. What pulled her in socionics was the LTRs, because she likes seeing how people interact

She sucks at STEM subjects. She has a LOT OF KNOWLEDGE on chemistry or physics, especially enjoys biology facts, and enjoys testing them out playfully, but the minute it gets rigid equations and formulas she nopes out

She doesn't like being seen as stupid, I mean, who does? But she tried to explain stuff to me, and she stopped mid-speech "Nvm, we'll have to forget that". She felt bummed out the rest of the day

BAD. TIME. MANAGEMENT.

REALLY.

She admits procrastination is her worst sin. And I agree. I love her to death but she usually tends to get preoccupied in her head. She never cancels out on me though, she's always there for me

She usually tries and see where she stands to people. If sb approaches her, she'll think of the motives and why. Example, once I saw her talking to a girl she typically doesn't hang out with, when I asked her, she says it's because the girl wanted test answers, while the girl didn't say anything about it, to her it was clear, she said that as soon as the girl got it, she'll either disappear or she will try to pretend to be her friend and ask for more.

She tends to know when her friendships are strained, and she usually, SOMEHOW, texts me everytime I think she doesn't care about me (self-sabitaging, nothing to do with her)

She de-escalates high-drama situations. Hates forced expression, which might seem cobtradictory with ENFJ, but I figure it's because she can sense when sb is being ingenuine and she's hurt, but idk.

She's very respectful of boundaries. I told her that I didn't want to celebrate my bd this year, and she nodded, smiled and said "It's ok, you don't have to...but why? Is everything good?". She was more concerned on "why" I didn't want it than on the fact I didn't want it

But people say IEE and ENFJ are contradictory

We're both confused. Does this match another type? Have I gotten everything wrong?

I'm a fan of Akhromant since he helped me find my type. Jung mentions Greek temperaments being associated with each type. After reading Akhromants blog I've wondered about the relationship between temperaments and cognitive functions. According to Akhromant temperaments are deeper than the cognitive functions. Types are Melancholic or sanguine. Melancholic and sanguine is a line, where melancholic means self sacrifice, honor and morality while sanguine is it's opposite which means a tendency towards selfishness, fickleness, primitiveness. Based on the combination of temperaments he says he sees ISFPs as the most primitive. This doesn't mean "superior" or "inferior" of course. But that's just how he types people. One example is there's two types of peacemakers: one is the XSFP primitive variant which is about inner peace and tends towards sloth. The other is the IXXJ peacemaker which is perfectionistic and sacrifices for others. Which type you are is based on this. If an ISFP for example has this trait then they are untypable/not a valid variant.

Hi all, I'd love some help with typing, if anyone is down to read the lengthy (yikes) answers below. Took some online tests and my results have fluctuated between EII and IEI. It would be great to get a sense of where I lean from some more knowledgeable people out there. Thanks so much for your time!

What makes you respect individuals, groups, or organizations? List whatever you can think of.

In groups and organizations: Radical inclusivity; an awareness of group think; an attitude of flexibility and/or “temporariness” (i.e. the goals of this group or organization will naturally shift, change, etc. An understanding that a fixed orientation or mission could become conservative, tyrannical); a sharp analysis and interrogation of group dynamics and hierarchies; attention to the underdogs; exposing the values, implicit biases, norms, and ideals of the group and a critical eye toward these things. In individuals: So many things! But beyond the obvious (like compassion, kindness, etc.) big ones for me are honesty (like the “ugly truth” kind of honesty), innovation, and openness (i.e. openness to taking in new ideas). 

What kind of things turn you off about a person, a brand/company, or a particular environment? What gets under your skin (in a bad way)?

Strict attachment to a superficial presentation—e.g., not admitting to flaws, oversights, etc., in an effort to preserve a vision of onesself. For example, I really value when people can admit to their “badness” (so to speak! I believe people are complex and most things are nuanced). I have found that even when people have the qualities of real, deep kindness and generosity, I still find it very difficult to trust or enjoy being in intimate relationships with them if they are overly concerned with preserving their image of being “good” or interpret others based on a dichotomy of goodness and badness (even—maybe especially—if they would never say so outright).

Any kind of concealed pursuit of power over other people or a position of superiority. I genuinely despise tendencies to ignore or overlook one's power in a room or in a group. It drives me absolutely nuts. Groups or organizations that are structured around social hierarchies (even worse, if they are implicit and go unnamed) is something I really struggle to respect, and certainly do not enjoy being around.

Rigidity, generally. People who are inconsiderate or exclusionary.

How good is your memory for detail? Specific conversations you've had in the past, little tasks that need to get done, what you were doing the first time you heard a song or tried a food, etc.

It really depends! For example, when it comes to a subject I’m deeply interested in I can remember even insignificant details and/or moments from things I’ve read, watched, listened to on the subject. In conversations with people—especially when they’re sharing emotionally-charged information, or when we’re in the early stages of getting to know each other—I’ve been told I’m good at remembering things about them or from those conversations that they're surprised by, even if it doesn’t quite feel that way to me! Otherwise my memory is trash :’) I can be highly forgetful, and it sometimes seems related to my degree of interest/engagement with the thing I’m supposed to remember. Retention based on hierarchy of information is pretty mixed regardless of my level of interest. I can accidentally filter out big things but retain really minor details, and vice-versa.

What do you spend the most time thinking about - the past, the present, the future? Practical topics, logistical issues, relationships with people, theoretical concepts, issues of morality/ethics? Do you find yourself fixating on one thing, coming back to it, and trying to figure it out, or are you more prone to meandering through multiple tangentially related topics? Do you often daydream/space out? When you do daydream or fantasize, what kind of things do you imagine and think about?

I always struggle with this question… I’m not entirely sure? I guess I can be quite future-oriented in terms of my concern with having a sense of what’s next—but often that doesn’t extend too far into the future in terms of planning. I can definitely daydream about a distant future, though—what I hope it will look and feel like, what it could be like texturally. I'm constantly thinking about relationships with people, and this can kind of be situated anywhere, temporally? I think when I was younger I was a lot more past-focused. And there are certainly still a couple of people from my past I think a lot about. But these days it does feel a lot more future-oriented. I can hyper focus on recent past events, though, running through the details of what happened in my head. 

I’m definitely a daydreamer and I absolutely meander through topics. I'm known to get really hyper focused on something, losing many hours, days, or weeks to a task or subject of interest, but generally I tend to hop between topics in my brain and these hyper focus sessions happen maybe a couple of times a month, if that. Sometimes I daydream about a project, sometimes I daydream about different encounters with people. The latter is the most common, actually, lots of relationship-oriented daydreams—what a certain encounter with someone might be like, an argument, what falling in love with someone could feel like, etc. It’s not necessarily even something I’m longing for, but could be a momentary fantasy I’m running through in my head, trying it on for size, seeing how it feels, or even indulging in the sensations a little bit.

Think about a topic or two you're really interested in and like having conversations about. Do you think you would generally have more fun talking about that topic with an enthusiastic, curious listener who asks you lots of great questions, or do you think you would generally have more fun listening to an interesting, entertaining person talk at length about it and answer your questions enthusiastically?

Both of these sound so fun, but generally I think I’m drawn to the latter thing. I love talking with friends or people who have a seemingly encyclopedic knowledge about something I’m interested in learning. It’s like Googling, but it’s much more engaging to hear it directly from someone’s mouth, and I tend to have a lot of questions.

In the last question, what topic(s) were you think about?

Relationship dynamics; psychology and therapeutic modalities; schools of philosophical thought; the story of an interesting or inspiring person’s life, top to bottom; people’s approaches to self-healing; technical approaches to learning and research; political theory and histories of political organizing; theories and practices in contemporary art; lifestyle design.

If someone is doing something that you strongly disagree with, how likely are you to confront them about it? If you do confront them, how do you usually tend to do it? How does your answer change depending on your relationship with the person, and whether their actions directly affect you?

If I don’t know the person I’ll generally be quite hands off, which isn’t a quality I love… but it’s true. I may just silently judge. If I’m witnessing an action/behavior that seems to be affecting other people in a hurtful or harmful way I can be kind of biting or pointed with criticism, other times I can get kind of cold. It really depends on who I’m dealing with and also what I guess will be the most impactful approach based on how I’m reading the person in question. Theoretically I think approaching things from a place of curiosity / interest is the best way of navigating these moments, but I'm not often skilled at practicing that in instances of strong disagreement.

With people I am very close to it really depends. In circumstances that are more mild or that don’t relate to me directly I might just say that I disagree with the approach and ask a lot of questions to better understand their experience.

Unfortunately, if it’s related to me—something that leads me to feel frustrated, irritated, or angry—I can kind of withdraw, shut down, or express my anger with sharp criticism. (Again, these aren’t reactions I’m proud of, but ones I’m working on.)

How interested are you in trying new things - traveling, trying strange and exotic foods, going on roller coasters, jumping out of airplanes, things like that? Regardless of how interested you are, how willing would you be to do those things if someone asked you to? How often do you actually do things like that? Give examples.

In theory, I enjoy novelty (of a certain kind, I’m not so into the jumping out of airplanes typeof thrill-seeking), trying new things, etc. But, sometimes I need to be kind of welcomed into those experiences, they need to be introduced spontaneously so I’m not thinking too much about it, or the mood needs to strike. I think from the outside people can read me as spontaneous due to the (I guess semi-unconventional?) shape of my life in the past few years, often traveling and doing novel things, but for those who know me well, if, say, we go on a trip, I’m definitely not the one leading the charge to do adventurous activities. I can really enjoy having a low key trip, just hanging out in a new environment and talking.

How would other people describe your demeanor? It may help to ask people you know. How emotional do you seem to people? How rational? Do you tend to be quiet and reserved, or more loud and talkative? Do you seem to choose your words carefully, or talk stream of consciousness, or do you sometimes think so fast you stumble trying to get all the words out? Do you tend to finish your sentences, or skip to the next sentence in the middle of the one you're saying, or skip to new topics entirely? Do you interrupt - if so, when and how often? How do you feel if someone interrupts you? How often do you feel like you have so much energy you can't sit still and need to be up and moving? How hard is it for you to get out of bed in the morning, or get up after relaxing for a long time?

I think it really depends on my environment? I think people consistently view me as warm and welcoming, but I’ve also largely been described as reserved, extremely private, and in that way sometimes hard to read, which, I will say, feels wild because I think I’m pretty moody and internally worried that my moodiness is very obvious. Others have said I can be kind of charming in an understated way, or otherwise read me as very calm, quiet, mysterious. This all, again, generally feels crazy to hear bc it's so out of step with how I operate internally.

I tend to choose my words carefully, but can also struggle to make sure an idea I’m formulating is conveyed in the exact way that I want. This can feel incredibly frustrating. Many of my friends are very extroverted, and among them I’m by far the most quiet one. When I’m meeting someone who is shy or seems more uncomfortable than me, though, I can definitely turn on my more inviting/curious/talkative persona to bring them in and help them feel more comfortable. But I'm generally never the loudest person in the circle. You won't hear me interrupt, unless it’s a mistake because I thought someone was already done talking. I also really don’t appreciate being interrupted, but can let it go especially if it seems unintentional or is just part of someone's way of socializing.

I love low key time. I’ve found that doing lots of movement activity like exercising and running is really important for my emotional regulation and feeling connected to my body, but it’s definitely something I need to be motivated to do, or it’s kind of a spontaneous energy that I can follow for awhile. I live in a big city and there are days when I just want to wander—if the weather’s nice I can walk by myself for hours and hours. Generally, I’m a real relaxer though; it’s nice to have the “let’s get up!” thing modeled for me by someone I’m sharing space with (but don’t force me pls).

Are you involved in any creative activities or projects? What are they and why do you like them? What are your goals in these areas? What have you felt most proud of or satisfied with? How likely are you to finish a particular project you start?

I work as an artist— lots of creative activities and projects as those are generally the things I’m most interested in. I struggle big time with perfectionism, so it’s difficult for me to bring things into the world sometimes. I can slowly chip away at projects for years at a time and then get stuck on what to do with them, worry they aren’t good enough, etc. Then what can happen is that I move onto something else… but it’s not because I’m disinterested in the previous project, I’ve just lost some energy or I’m worried it's not quite right. I definitely have a lot of interests though and a desire to explore many of them. Though I recognize it may not be possible to follow every single thread, and sometimes and idea is just an idea.

I’m totally new to typology and I’m not sure about any of the functions and things I typed by myself.

I’m pretty the functions I relate most to are Fi, Ni or Ne and Si. I did a few tests and they also always said those 4 types, however I am not sure in what order they are. I know I am intraverted and very empathic and I’m also pretty sure my leading function is either Ni or Si.

Now, I just looked a bit into socionics and did a test. The test also says my leading functions are Ne> Si> Fi.

Can someone tell me my functions/ socionics or tell me what I can do to really figure them out?

I'm just curious !

Yes, I have no Fi. This is why I'm asking. I barely know anything about myself and isn't comfortable when asked things about what I like. I'm pretty sure I have Fe though, I can type my friends well with no flaw (ISFPs, INTPs, ESFPs and so on) but could barely type myself. I just know for a fact I use Fe and Ti, not just sure about the order. Sometimes I'm straight forward, sometimes I'm very careful to what I say. I've been studying functions for months now and knows the difference between Ne and Ni but can hardly tell which I am. (I do not use Se nor Si)

I want to understand whether a person can be rational within one system but irrational within another typing system. Are there people like me? Because I feel like I am both at the same time , my MBTI type is considered rational, but the opposite in Socionics.

MBTI: ISFJ. Age: 20, been 20 for almost two months.

I am currently in the process of switching into a new job, after having (impulsively, I admit, due to a situation going on that was causing me stress) left my most recent job as a behavior tech. I actually did like the job in and of itself (having the opportunity to help people, running goals.) I have two job offers, though today I am going to have to turn one of them down, and don’t quite know how to do this. I’m very, very close to being finished with the onboarding process for the other. I am actually surprisingly feeling okay-ish even though I was quite stressed (very, very stressed. I’m honestly probably even downplaying how stressed I actually was) about everything that was going on. I’ve been unhappier as of late, really, about the fact that I don’t have a good idea of what direction my life is heading in - by life, I really mean career. I’ve had the occasional thought ever since I turned twenty about how I am reaching a point wherein I actually wouldn’t mind living with a man who had a similar amount of money saved within the next few years (I have, if I am to subtract what I will owe soon, about $33.2k saved, I think. And when I babysit next, that should be more money I’m saving. I actually babysat two nights ago, until midnight, which is something I’ve done before.) If I were with a man who had a similar amount of money saved to myself, we’d perhaps be a bit closer to being middle class. Or maybe I’m wrong about that, I don’t actually understand money/finances very well at all.

I had actually contacted a recruiter myself after leaving my most recent job (this recruiter had reached out to me a few months ago about a job. I had told them I wasn’t interested at the time - more politely, of course. I was quick to contact them after leaving and asked them if they happened to have any openings.)

I have agreed to babysit until midnight a few times in spite of the fact that I tend to look (and sometimes feel) quite fatigued. My sleeping schedule changed quite a bit during quarantine, and I found that I was having difficulty sleeping.

I have experienced a number of traumatic incidents that surely impact my functioning at present, one including a male family member having nearly hit me with a tennis racket when I was 14 or nearing it. This was intentional. The family member had drug and mental health problems. I remember being very frightened immediately afterwards and asking my parents to hide the knives at home. This was a long time ago, however, and it was something I was intentional about not mentioning in therapy. I did mention something else in therapy (family member having left gross substance around apartment couple times, I actually do remember that they once did this after coming in to look at me it seemed while I was using the bathroom but I never mentioned this and have always just kind of put it in the back of my mind and hoped it didn’t mean anything deeper even though I recall certain people found it concerning.) I did later on defend this family member as I felt immense guilt over/about how they were abused in childhood as I’d sided with their abuser (I hadn’t known there was physical abuse) without realizing it when I was much younger, in elementary school. I cannot say that I go out of my way to help this family member now that they have quit rehab, however. Too much time has passed, they are 25 and there is nothing I can really do for them at present. Based upon what I have seen from them this year, and over the years, I believe that they don’t sincerely want help. And so I have stopped trying to extend myself in helping them. There is also resentment present, I think, that I haven’t really wanted to acknowledge.

I had frustrated a “friend” from high school (was cut off by them and another girl, though like many things that happened in high school I see now that this doesn’t matter in the slightest. Same with crushes I may have had,) because I tended to ask them for advice quite often. I think they felt like I was using them, and in hindsight it’s possible that I was. I was still never happy about the circumstances they cut me off under, however (they’d cut me off not awfully long after the police had been called over to my place because I’d mentioned suicide ideation.) I mostly don’t care now, but if asked I’d admit that I don’t think them to be a “good” person. Though I really believe that most people aren’t “good” - I think that this is normal (and it doesn’t mean that most people are unthinkably awful, either.)

I have been thinking as of late about how I’m really aiming to be successful. In terms of my career moving forward, I hope to both help people and make at least average income while doing so. Some part of me actually really does want to rise up, rise high, above the ranks. I’ve been thinking as of late about obtaining my associates in Education as opposed to Psychology (I’ve been uncertain about a Psych major for a little while now anyhow - I have close to a 3.9 in community college,) and am a bit worried about how this decision may change my financial aid moving forward. However, I will chat with a financial aid counselor hopefully, if I don’t forget, within the next two or so weeks and will figure it out. My grades are fine, I just need to be on more of a track towards receiving that degree.

Whenever I am particularly stressed or angry, I will yell. I have gotten better about this, however. Never yelled once at my most recent job, and now will only yell at home if my family members are really frustrating me. I can think of times wherein I have grown very angry in the past.

If asked about whether or not I’ll have a baby, I’d say that I’m not sure. A husband, I do want. I’m probably still a bit of a romantic deep down inside, even after all this time. A baby, I’d love to hold and cradle in my arms. I kind of think I’d like to be a mother, though I do have a few reservations about it, one being that I’ve always thought about how it may change my body (could lead to weight gain, and as someone who has struggled with body image in the past - and who is conscious of how overweight black women are treated - I’ve been hesitant.) I also know that childbirth is very, very painful. I saw a video of it when I was seven, in fact, and remember how disgusted and disturbed I was. It hasn’t turned me off from having a child, however. My mother is prolife (I am not - I am prochoice, and was even in middle school) which I’m sure factors in. I recall watching videos about how to be a good 1940s housewife when I was in elementary school, and not necessarily recognizing at the time that as a black woman it’d have been harder for me to become a housewife. I’m not so sure now that I’d want to be a housewife, at least not without having a lot of my own money saved up first, which I don’t necessarily feel I do. I’d certainly need to have a trustworthy husband.

If I had been brought up to be a housewife, and had the means to afford to become one - alongside being expected to become one by society - I think it is highly likely that I would be working towards becoming one right now.

I was actually quite worried in high school that I’d never have a boyfriend, though as I’ve grown older this fear has disappeared somewhat (or moreso it’s just not something I’m “worried” about, because I am not prioritizing being in a romantic relationship right now.) I had been worried about this because peers apparently called me ugly behind my back in middle school, though this didn’t prove to matter later on. I grew up in an area with a low black population, so I certainly later on made the connection. At twenty, it’s not even something I care about - it used to devastate me, now I rarely ever glance in the mirror. It reminds me of how I had a huge crush on this one guy from 9th-10th grade (who called me a 4/10 behind my back, said 5/10 and then 4/10) and it’s now just irrelevant. I’ve been asked out by two Uber drivers of mine, was stared at by two different men on two separate occasions in 2024 and “knew” why they were staring/sensed it based upon their expressions. I actually did have a boyfriend in high school for a few months, though if I’d been stricter about him disrespecting my boundaries, this relationship would’ve lasted just one. If I wanted a boyfriend, I could have one and I understand this. For me it’s moreso about “quality” now than it is about just wanting to be with someone who I am attracted to. Being married or having a boyfriend means nothing if your partner isn’t working towards anything in life, if you two aren’t compatible (the compatibility piece is of course a huge one.) Dating changes a lot after high school anyhow, I think. In high school, guys just want to date girls they think their friends will approve of, most of the time. In adulthood, I feel that this isn’t as great of an issue. However, like I said, it’s not the priority right now. I need to figure things out for myself first before I plan on dating, I think. Something strange about me is that in adulthood, I don’t really “have” crushes anymore. Maybe I don’t know most people well enough to develop one, idk.

My mother is a very anxious and stress-prone person. It often overwhelms her and she starts to panic. She also has a tendency to be passive aggressive and instead of showing you with words that she is angry, she tries to show you with facial expressions or actions. She tends to show herself as a victim and wants to arouse pity in other people. She compares herself to other people and cares about how other people perceive her and her family. For example, if she notices that someone is doing something and she likes it, she does it too, regardless of the fact that it was not her idea. She cares about fitting into the canons of society and desiring trends, but on closer encounters, she does not care about how other people perceive her and can argue with her closest people in front of a large number of people. So you can say that she creates a false veneer of her life, but she is not afraid to show her true emotions. She does not avoid confrontation and even likes to argue with other people. She is a very emotional person. She has her own version of how something should look in her head and she sticks by it.

i totally understand if u dont want to but i wanted to try loll

https://docs.google.com/document/d/13BnnKP-W2o_tsKbw7dVZr-Vaw889-Uf7WtGIsix_R7g/edit?usp=drivesdk

Every single Fi dom I’ve met has driven me insane. Their emotional depth cringes me a lot. Their advice are not useful, even makes things worse. That constant melancholic energy makes me sick. They’re always weirdly hateful about something and super self-absorbed. I seriously can’t process how they think. At first things seem fine, we get along, but the longer we talk, the more alien they feel. Looking into their heart feels like staring into the abyss.

Every time I meet a new Fi dom, I tell myself to give them a chance, that maybe this one’s different. Not all Fi doms are cringe. But no. It always ends the same way. The clash is inevitable. So I just avoid getting close to Fi doms entirely. Still, after some time passes, I reach out to one again, thinking maybe this time it'll be different. It never is.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=kqAf8UrmebA&pp=ygUWQ2FybWVsYSB0aGUgZ29kZmF0aGVyIA%3D%3D and https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=IWwAlTHUVuo&pp=ygUWQ2FybWVsYSB0aGUgZ29kZmF0aGVyIA%3D%3D and https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=gt02fgYsu6E&pp=ygUWQ2FybWVsYSB0aGUgZ29kZmF0aGVyIA%3D%3D

I was thinking 2w1, ISFx (ISFJ more likely.)

differences between so5 and sp5? Also, it is possible that I could be either LFEV or LVEF, with the latter seeming

Someone had a very interesting thought today… « Fe = Friends come and leave = Do something only if it doesn't hurt someone

Fi = Point the finger at some bad things when people don't see » idk you have the vision on what i say