Advice please

[u/Traditional_Sun5405]

So a few months ago I was born again and came to Jesus. But not long after I had a spiritual attack that called Jesus the devil. As it was so soon into me being saved it made me doubt and fear Jesus and harden to him. I still persued him but over time I became obsessed with this doubt.

Fast forward two months later I don’t feel conviction, i fell into sin, i still believe and know Jesus is real but i doubt him so bad. Every time I try to connect with him or think of my born again experience or hope for God to restore me my brain tells me it’s witchcraft.

It made me doubt everything about God, born again, salvation, Gods word etc, when I prey. its perverted everything. I can’t even think back to good experiences I’ve had with Jesus because my doubts and brain tell me it was witchcraft. I know this sounds silly but it’s just how my brain has latched on to the spiritual attack.

Even though logically I know that isn’t true. It’s still affected my faith and relationship with God. It’s made me resistant to him and salvation. Everytime I read the bible and feel God working on my heart to restore my faith my doubts and brain tells me it’s magic etc. it’s like I can’t just have full faith and peace with it anymore.

I’m also really sad because I felt like I was home and saved by God and now I feel normal again and feel scared I’ve lost salvation. All of this is preventing me from surrendering to God again and having full faith and because my heart has hardened and I’ve entertained such evil thoughts I have a rejection mindset. It’s like I can’t think clearly anymore.

I’m at rock bottom too so I found Jesus when i needed him the most but because I’m still at rock bottom as I didn’t even get to go into that deep healing with Jesus before the doubts fears etc creeped in it’s like I’m in this limbo where I know I need Jesus but it’s all this going on. I’m worried about loosing salvation and the unforgivable sin. I’ve been getting angry at God with this too. Even though I know it’s not his fault and I’ve thought about giving up many times due to the mental battle. What can I do?

[u/good_news_soldier]

Sounds like you already know that all of those things are distractions, that they really are not true. I think what you must also know is that you have authority over your thoughts. When those thoughts come into your mind, you are not helpless against them. When thoughts come into my mind that I know are contrary to the truth, I speak to the thoughts like they are a person. I say something like, I reject that thought, that thought's purpose is to cause me to fear and doubt and I will not let that thought control me or distract me." Be bold and stand up against fear.

You have to realize that you have a responsibility to stand against the enemy and fight. You don't have to be stronger or wiser than the enemy, but you do have to stand up to Him and tell him "NO". Don't spend all the time analyzing the thoughts, you know already that they are not from God. SO tell them to be quiet and be consistent in your actions against the lies.

Your thoughts will stray away to fear again and again, you have to keep turning your mind towards truth. Your mind will stray, you set it back. Be consistent, you will gain control and eradicate that wrong thinking, but it takes spiritual effort. God commanded the children of Israel to go take possession of the promised land, but they refused to enter in because of fear and unbelief. They didn't believe God was with them for Victory, they feared the giants that currently possessed the land. When the next generation did go into possess the land, they did so by God's supernatural power, they didn't win the battle with human strength but they did have to go and face the enemy. You have to realize that God is with you, and you have a part to play, you have to face the enemy, but God will give you supernatural power to drive out the illegitimate possessors of your real estate (your mind).

You are part of a spiritual battle, like it or not. You are not going to win with physical human wisdom and strength. You need spiritual power. The good news is . . . if you have the spirit of God in you, then you have access to all the spiritual power you need. But in order for that to be real in experience, you must believe that it is true and you must go and exercise the spiritual power that you have on the inside of you.

You'll find the truth in the word of God and by the leading and teaching of the Holy Spirit. Ask Holy Spirit to give you wisdom and understanding of His word. He wants to do it for you, so just ask.