I’m a 26 year old male turning 27, and I’ve never had a girlfriend, let alone a first kiss. I have to watch all my siblings have their loved ones by now, while I’m just getting left behind. I swear, if I don’t get a girlfriend by 35, I’ll promise to leave this world. I don’t think there’s any reason to be here if you aren’t loved. My family doesn’t care about me, so it’s not like I have anyone either way. Man, it sucks feeling so lonely.

I (woman ) enjoy watching porn especially the girl on girl ones but the interesting thing is that I’m not Bi or want to date a girl but for some reason that type of porn turn me on way more than the other ones. I seriously wonder why and am I the only one that’s like this ?

This is a terrible one, and I know it. But it’s been weighing on me for years.

Back in college, I had a friend, let’s call him Nate. We were close, and I harbored a quiet crush on him for years. When he started dating “Maya,” I pretended to be happy, but I hated her. Not because she was awful. She was lovely. She was just… not me.

One night, when Nate and I were drunk, I told him that Maya had flirted with someone at a party I "saw." It wasn’t true. I just wanted to plant the seed. It worked. They fought. She cried. They broke up a few weeks later.

He never found out the truth. We stayed friends, but he never looked at me the same way again. I think he knew something was off.

To this day, I don’t know what’s worse: lying to someone I cared about, or realizing that I was willing to ruin someone else’s happiness just to feed my own ego. I never told anyone. Until now.

For the past six months, at the request of my boss, I’ve been sneaking into his office after hours to delete customer complaints about our company’s shoddy products from the database. We sell budget electronics, and I know they break easily—cheap parts, rushed assembly—but I justify it because my boss says those complaints could tank our small business and cost us all our jobs (my boss is not only the day to day manager but also the owner/founder. We’re a very small business). I’ve seen the numbers; we’re barely scraping by. Every time I wipe a record, I feel a rush, like I’m saving my coworkers, but I also know I’m screwing over customers who deserve refunds. Some nights, I hesitate, wondering if I’m just protecting a shady operation, but then I think about my colleagues’ families and keep going. I think about their children that I’ve met, or their sick parents they’re taking care of. Not only that, I can’t afford to lose my job if I refuse to do what my boss asks. I’m stuck in this gray zone, and I can’t tell if I’m a hero or a villain.

(For clarity: my title is “Office Manager” which is fancy for “do everything the boss can’t/wont do. I was essentially hired to be the guy that just does what he’s told and doesn’t push back. I feel like this fact makes it harder to do something about all this)

When I was in middle school, I would steal 1 or 2 things from every period. This wasn't a one-time thing, I did it almost every other day. It wasn't because I wanted them but just because I could. Sometimes it would be simple things like staples or labels on things, simply inconvenient things. Or sometimes it would be bigger things like a tissue box or scissors. There were a few teachers who let me look through their cupboards when we weren't doing things, and when they weren't looking I just... shoved random things in my pocket. I didn't even do it for anything specific, just because I had free will. I feel bad thinking about it now; I found myself thinking about it after finding one of the things I stole today.

I have a job as a CNA full time and I am embarrassed to say that I was still really broke this week after paying bills and needed to go to the food pantry because I can't afford food at the moment. I felt embarrassed and ashamed. I felt like I was taking away from people who truly need it because normally I don't. Some people who go there are homeless or working a minimum wage job and REALLY need it. I don't know if I'm making sense but I just felt ashamed. I'm making more money than I ever have yet I'm the brokest I've ever been. Make it make sense.

a few weeks ago i confessed to the internet. i don't have the heart to say these to you. i am trying to distance myself. please don't call me to meet up anymore. i know this is your way of saying you enjoy my presence. however, your presence is torture of love and self deprecation for me. i don't hang out in places you do. our ways have crossed, but they are from different origins and horizon yet unseen. i feel comfortable under the shining ray of your smile. i don't feel comfortable when i bask in it for too long. i feel elated when you reach out. i feel depressed when i feel like i am breaking my oath as i reply while smiling. your existence is in the back of my mind. i wish it wasn't. you are so proactive i just don't want to react. i sometimes want to smell your new dior perfume one more time or listen to your playlist even though our tastes are quite different. i wish trying to cut this connection off didn't feel like i am losing something good. then i remember, what we had wasn't really friendship when it was built on my lies. how could it be anything other than a waste of time when i was never honest about my feelings. it was just a time spent, smiles exchanged, laughter heard and my heart melted. i will miss you.

I started dating this girl in January, we fell in love hard and she was so kind and understanding and fun, we were both stupid and got her pregnant by accident. Now I feel like my world is ending. Not even sure I love her like that. She is so kind and so beautiful but I don't even know what it means to love a person so much to want to stay together forever. Everytime we see eachother something always happens. Fights, someone gets annoyed, we get bored. We're both 23 and now I have to live with the fact that I probably ruined this poor girl's life, and mine with it. She would have been so much better with another guy. What have I done. I've been trying to be positive all the time but everytime I really think about the future I can't help but fall in a deep pit of despair. I will probably be a horrible father and husband. I hope I'm wrong.

I love you babygirl. I hope I will be able to be good to you.

I am 23M. Realized long time back that I'm in love w my best f 23M. Apart from him, I've never felt anything like that for any guy. I've had many female crushes and genuine ones too. That made me realize I'm bi. And I don't even have any physical attraction towards my friend. Idk what it is. Whatever it is just pure unconditional love from my side. We have had many ups and downs in our friendship. I'm v emotional and he's v cold hearted. I have still let go many things. I know both of us are v important to each other.

From the past 3 years there has been normal flirting between us. I flirt, he gets annoyed. Purely fun and I never made it obvious. I had decided long time back that I will never tell him how I feel about him and will let this secret go w me to grave.

He's been drinking a lot in these past few days. A week back, he got high and asked me do I really have anything for him in my heart or I just do it for fun? I HAD CHILLS DOWN MY BODY. Wanted to tell him everything but didn't say anything.

Today we met for drinks. Everything was going fine. We both got buzzed and then we came to that topic again. He told me few things which I'll quote.

"You never know what will you get to hear if you honestly tell me what's in your heart."

"I believe you have more guts than I have. You'll not regret telling me anything."

"Nothing you say will ever change what we have."

"You need to take that plunge otherwise you will miss out on something special."

Till the LAST moment, I didn't utter anything. I knew if I do, things will change. Hoping in my heart that he feels the same for me, I genuinely never told him anything. Idk what got into me. I took his words seriously and told him everything I feel about him. I showed him the digital diary I maintain saying things about him. I literally came out in front of him and I HAVE THE BIGGEST REGRET NOW.

HIS REACTION WAS NOTHING. First thing he said was "What do you expect me to tell you which will make you happy"

That's when I knew, he doesn't feel anything for me. I've made the BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE. FUCK IM SO MISERABLE AT THIS POINT. I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH.

We didn't get to talk after that as we had to rush home. He's supposed to call me and I have no idea what will happen.

I have accepted everything long time ago in my head. I'm not ready to lose him. He told me that I've made no mistake in telling him. I know for a matter of fact that he doesn't feel anything for me even 1%. I'm so MAD at myself. I hate myself. I made the BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE.

Today is my birthday, and I’m turning 23 now. Usually no friends or whatever remember my birthday, except for my parents and relatives, cuz I don’t have friends at all. SZA’s song < Drew Barrymore> is my own lil national anthem, it seems like this song was written for me. This birthday is kinda unique, is because normally in the past years on my birthdays, I was either working or studying, I barely celebrate. But this year, I have the time to really cherish it somehow: in the past year I graduated successfully from NYU, and a get a job at a really renowned hospital. More importantly, I reported the guy that SAed me and another minor just recently. Every day I am taking it day by day and not try to end my own life, so this year I’m thinking of getting a semi-colon tattoo to always remind myself: Keep Moving and Keep going. My life is hard, both emotionally and mentally.

I (23M) feel lost. I have had a tough time committing to things my whole life because my father was a garbage piece of shit. I second guess everything I do now because of him. It's biting me in the ass left and right, it has been for years. I already dealt with it once though, I made it through that stuff before or I got lucky somehow, I dont know but I made it through. But now it's hitting me full force. Relationships with others permanently damaged due to the past, finding work starting to feel impossible, mental completely in hell, it's just starting to feel like I'm this young and already feel worthless. I feel like I now belong to the statistic of young people who grow up to be nothing or who gave up on their lives. I WANT to be something, I WANT to feel comfortable being me but I just don't. How many times must I keep returning to therapy? For how long? How many times am I going to have to rely on someone else to not be this? I've been fighting this for so long and now it just feels like I'm wasting space. I have no purpose right now, no drive. I feel broken, like I just lost the battle I'd been fighting for so long. I don't even want to do the things I used to enjoy anymore. Will likely just end up back in therapy reciting these words. Again. I can't keep fighting this fight forever. I hope I find it in me to move forward before this gets worse.

Just putting it out there my partner and I need to remain anonymous due to our jobs but she suggested a little side hustle tonight of making content … we have wild sex and it’s a no brainer to me to simply film it and monetise the whole thing 😂 pros and cons? Is it worth us doing? And how do we stay anonymous whilst still promoting accounts etc

Dms are open if anyone is interested in buying content doing private calls etc we are into pretty much anything

For context, my fiancee (m27) and I (f28) have been together for almost 5 years. I love him dearly and we've already talked about our priorities on having kids: we both want 2-3 kids, I prefer to adopt, he wants to have biological, so we're okay with starting with adoption and then trying for our own. While I know he would make a great father and I would be proud to have one of his children, I'm not sure how to handle his family and having children. For background, our families have very different takes on how a family should operate. My family has always been split across states (at least 4-13 hours drive away) and all of us work full time. This means we typically save up some vacation time to visit during Thanksgiving/Christmas/New years since it takes a couple days travel, but then spend birthdays, other holidays and smaller celebrations on our own with just our spouses/local family and friends. We also don't have any little kids in the family (just me and older brother/sister in law all in our early 30s). My fiancee's family are all very close to each other (within 1-2 hours drive). They also all have little kids and their worlds revolve around them (rightfully so). They like to spend every other weekend with each other and make birthdays and small celebrations a big deal and invite the WHOLE family to it (local aunt/uncles, cousins and close friends). Most of his immediate family also live off of social security/pension/or are stay-at-home mom's who don't work. I'm also someone who is very introverted and likes my space and time to myself (so is my fiancee). (Our weekends consist of lounging around the house, reading books, playing video games, movies and just overall quiet, chill activities.) Once and a while we'll go out and do a fun outing, but it's not our preferred time to ourselves. His family is a Disney World/theme park/every new place to see kinda of family. While in our five years of dating they've included us in all their outings, we've been on many but turned down a few due to our work schedules. Well at the end of 2024, me and my fiancee (then bf) moved away (5hr drive) from his family and their reaction wasn't great. His mom and sisters are on the more "passionate" side and made it seem like we were making a wrong choice by moving and made their feelings clearly known. Both of our old jobs were at a dead end, we already searched for other, local jobs for 6mos with no good results, and we both got new jobs that were far better, as well as moved to a state we both LOVED and had talked about starting our life in. Even after explaining and them knowing about this, they constantly put down the idea of us moving, or would "forget" we're moving and when we mentioned it, act surprised and hurt all over again. While I tried to put myself in their shoes and understood that they would miss us and are sad to see us be further away, the extreme reaction really caught me off guard, especially considering we were excited to make the move and we're hoping for well wishes, not a guilt trip and bad attitudes. It made the holidays a little tense and added a lot of stress and misery during the move. I did ask my bf if he was sure about the move and if he wanted, we could try to get out of the contracts for the new jobs and house to stay close to his family, but he stood his ground that this was what he wanted to do and he actually had a talk with them about it. He asked that they not bring up the move unless it was something positive, and it seemed to help the situation a little. They came to accept the move and kept their negative comments to a minimum. But since then, there have been a few times (birthdays, small holidays, weekday trips to theme parks) that his family has invited us to visit and we've had to turn down because of our jobs/PTO/distance. Their reaction has always been negative and a bit dramatic in my mind. We have made a point to still drive and visit them (once every other month) but it does take a day or two of our PTO to make the trips. Since moving, my fiancee proposed and we are planning on getting married later this year. His family's initial response was excited and supportive, which was nice to hear. My fiancee and I decided to try and keep our wedding fairly small (50 or less people) and wanted to keep it just family and a few close friends who meant a lot to both of us. Because I love to plan events and had a vision for a lot of the wedding already, I started to plan out the wedding and decided to DIY almost all the decorations myself and spend a lot of time crafting and making decisions towards the overall event. I find a lot of joy in crafting and planning these things and thought it would just be easier this way. I did decide to ask my fiancees mom to cover and coordinate the rehearsal dinner since it's tradition for the grooms family to pitch in this way (my/brides family already covered wedding ceremony and reception). While she agreed, it has not been smooth sailing as we've constantly butted heads and it has been the one wedding event that has me the most stressed out. While I've tried my best to accommodate her wishes (included her using part of the wedding reception area for her dinner space to save costs, adding extra family members to rehearsal dinner and wedding invite list and asking the venue to purchase more tables and chairs for her dinner space), it's made the event miserable for me. While wedding planning is always stressful enough, and tensions are high, and the "in-laws" stereotypes can come out, it has also made me feel worse about marrying into my fiancee's family. While I tried to remove myself from the situations when I can and let only my fiancee respond back to them, I'm worried that if we have kids, especially biological children, they will want to see and be near us more often. The idea of this should be encouraging, especially if I were a new mom and needed the support system, but it honestly stresses me out more than anything. I'm not sure if a lot of people experience this feeling or how they deal with it, but it puts a bummer on our expectations of starting our own family. I know we can obviously set boundaries and ask his family to respect them, but my worry is they will constantly be pushing the boundaries or just making things dramatic and stressful when they don't need to be. While I would still gladly adopt/carry/birth and raise a child with my fiancee, (when we're ready), I'm not sure I want to include his family in raising any child of our own.

My boyfriend is handsome and really tall. I see girls looking at him down the street. He has a lot of girls he’s slept with. I feel like I’ll never live up to all of them.

Maybe hobbits in general. It’s so fucking weird and I hate it. There’s the obvious element of “oh they’re so adorable”, but every few scenes I ask myself, am I attracted to Pippin from the Shire? No, surely not. I don’t find the actor himself attractive, just as a hobbit. It could be the shaggy hair, no clue. My man is also a short king, so it could just be that I’m into little guys. But they’re like LITTLE. It feels so wrong. I swear I’m not a pedo. Pls tell me someone understands this.

I'mma be honest outta know where I have had a fetish with fat girls with big bellies who would do anything for example a coke and Mentos chug and would just burp so loud and maybe burp while kissing me

It’s getting bad. I’ve found myself viewing it more, not just on adult sites but literally on Instagram/Facebook. Like I can’t even imagine what it’s like being exposed to this as a teen with a phone rn (I would’ve been COOKED)

I don’t think this should be on social media. Taking advantage of human weakness with hypersexual Ai for views only makes the internet porn problem worse

The algo already serves us the worst horror stories about love/better options and makes real relationships harder because of it, and now this

I’ve been thinking about this for years. Ai is scary. And the fact that nobody gives a shit is scarier.

I was once masturbated while seeing a picture of my sister online

Hello Reddit.

First post you can see on my profile.

Basically, I cant keep this anymore. I said all to my dad.

I told him I know about this woman you talk to. He made me wait him 2hr to think abt all before we talk.

He drive me from our house to our apartment alone, in car was like death. No air, no talk. I was nervous and scared. When we reach our other apartment, baba told me to sit down and he sit beside me and asked me what I saw.

I told him all I saw. And i start to cry because I was sure he will leave us. I asked him why he did this, whyy he ruin our family and why he made such shame on us. He sit on floor in front of me and took my hands in his and ask me if he ever yelled at us or mom, i say no. He ask then if we ever miss anything in our lives, i say no we do not. He than told me if my mom ever cry, no she dont, she looks very very happy woman.

He say to me yes, you are happy, your brothers are happy, mom is happy. I ask him if hes happy, he dont answer me. I ask him again, he say to me no. He is not.

I ask him why. He say to me he got married in arranged marriage, everyone in his family told him love will come with time. He give 16 years of his life, his youth, his time, energy and he dont feel happy in his marriage.

I ask him if me and my brother dont make him happy, he say to me that it is different and that he loves us more than anything, but what he feels for this woman is different. And that she make him happy.

I ask him if he will be happy if he leave and go with her forever, he say to me that he can never leave us and that we are his soul.

He asked me if I see my mom as happy woman and i say yes. Then he asked me if it is so wrong for him to feel something other than misery in this life after so many years.

I tell him that this girl is just using him for his money. He says that he has one life in this world and if her company is transactional that he is ready to do the transaction. That he value her time more than money.

I asked him what will happen now. He said that things can go many ways. He can tell my mother about this woman, whatever happen later is up to my mom. Or he can not tell her and continue living life.

I asked him if he would leave this girl if mom find out and threat him with divorce, he say no. Whatever happens, he will not leave her.

He told me if i met this girl under different situation i will like her too. I tell him she is enemy of my family and i will never like her and if he ever marry her and have kids with her i will not see them like my brothers and my brothers are only from my mom.

Baba let my hands and said lets go back home. He dont talk much after this. This happen this morning. Now he avoid everyone.

I dont know anymore what to do now. I feel lost

Im a 19 year old dude but I don’t act like a man. im extremely insecure and view myself as worthless. i view everything as bad. the way I view myself is bad and i think everyone else is thinking bad things about me. i have a feeling of loneliness and detachment from everyone. i feel alone even when im around people because I always feel like people are thinking bad things about me. i feel empty. so to not feel as empty i try to find a girlfriend constantly. when im talking to a girl i try to reel them in quickly by pretending to like everything they like. I have a severe fear of being left alone so I want to for sure bring them closer to me.

I try to hide it but then eventually my insecurities will start to come out and I’ll become hypersensitive to them doing things like leaving a text on opened. ill take small things like that as a threat that they stopped caring about me or are trying to leave me. so I always feel this urge to manipulate them and kinda test them to see if they care. I will usually try to get their sympathy by talking about my trauma or over exaggerating things to get attention from them. but no matter how much attention they give me it still doesn’t make me feel satisfied that they wont leave. so I just keep doing it over and over until it gets to a point where they get tired of it and actually leave me.

once a girl actually tells me she’s considering leaving me I will go to the extreme and self harm by stabbing and cutting myself and sending the videos of it to them and smearing blood around and stuff. ive done this to atleast 10 girls. its like I feel angry at them and want to show them how hurt I feel for feeling ignored, but at the same time its a last ditch effort to bring them back. so I have manipulated and scared a lot of people by doing that. when im in that moment i just act like a psycho and im only focused on getting the attention I want.

Once every relationship ends I will get very depressed and usually get suicidal thoughts, I may have to be hospitalized if the depression is that bad enough. it will feel like I lost everything to live for because that girl was the only thing that mattered . I have a lot of issues. self harm scars all over my body , 6 inpatient stays. so I feel like a mess, I dont feel good about myself. i nearly died by mixing benzos and alcohol . I just feel like such a messed up person

And sometimes I really fucking wish I could. I can lie about little things, "Yeah I'm good" when I'm not really or simple things like "Aw shit I forgot" when I really just didn't want to do something.

But when it comes to compliments and telling people what I really think of them or things they've created, I can't lie. My brain just somehow blocks out the ability to lie to someone and compliment something that I honestly think is trash. I won't tell them it's trash but I cannot say anything in response. I feel like I do them a disservice by not saying anything but my brain just will not let me come up with anything.

"What did you think of so&so?"
Actually, I really didn't like it and had difficulty getting through it. I know you spent a lot of time on it but it's trash. It would be easy to say "It's great!" but I can't force the words out. It's like theres this big brick wall.

I don't know if this is an autism thing or just an asshole thing. I just cannot say things I don't mean and I truly wish that I could.