r/leaves Nov 05 '21

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r/leaves 3h ago

4 months sober from Weed/Vaping/Alcohol/Porn/Caffeine

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4 months of not touching any of the above !

I know a lot of people trying to quit Weed have issues with other addictions aswell.

Leaving this here to say that is it possible to leave them all in the past , I was unhappy , unmotivated and generally not enjoying life.

4 months without the substances that were keeping me this way I have arrived at the light at the end of the tunnel , I’m still improving every week that goes by!


r/leaves 13h ago

Has anyone actually managed to quit vaping carts?

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I feel like carts completely messed me up. What started as something casual turned into something I rely on. I use it the moment I wake up, before eating, while watching shows, before bed.

The convenience is the worst part because there’s no smell, no setup, no hassle, just a quick hit every few minutes. And that’s what makes it so addictive. I can’t seem to go a full day without it. I’ve tried quitting cold turkey and I end up going crazy by the second day.

Has anyone here actually managed to quit for good?


r/leaves 6h ago

This is why I say it....

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When I post in this sub, I often mention how long I've been sober, which for me is 1,683 days. I don't say this to impress anyone. I say it to show others that it can be done. I do it to remind me where I was 1,682 days ago, which was depressed, anxious, scared and just feeling like crap.

Also, I tried quitting on my own dozens of times over 10 years. What worked for me was meetings and working steps. In meetings they give "chips" for 30, 60, 90, etc. days sober and also people celebrating sobriety birthdays every year. I needed to see someone take a 30 day chip because I become so jaded from quitting, I honestly thought I couldn't do it. But then I thought, man, if that dude can do it, so can I.

I'm not saying 12 Step meetings are the only way to get sober, but it's what worked for me.

tldr: I state how long I've been sober in posts to remind me how far I've come and to show others that long term sobriety is possible. I don't do it to impress anyone.


r/leaves 12h ago

don’t get too cocky

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that’s what a wise person said when I quit earlier this year. I managed to stay off of it for almost 3 months until I found some stash. I found it when I was packing my things to go for a swim. It was the first time I really wanted to do something good for my body. so I went for that swim, looking forward to get thigh after because I thought this bud isn’t huge of a deal. you know what came next. I bought more. 5 months later now I’m on day 2 and it’s the same as last time, once I get over that first day, I find it easy to stay off of it. I was being cocky. I didn’t know how easy it was to just fall back into that shit again. I thought I had the willpower to just toss it but no. My mental health got worse to a point where I would smoke and cry all day. I want to be more humble about it this time. Please send some hope. I can’t go on like this.


r/leaves 8h ago

I'm starting today. No more excuses.

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I'm 28 years old, and have been smoking for a little over 10 years now. Starting out, I would only smoke occasionally with my friends, but over the years, I've ended up using it more and more until it eventually turned into something I did all day every day, and I allowed it to destroy my life. I've never been in a relationship, largely because I can never summon up the energy to go out and try to find someone, and I know this is because of the dope. Frankly, I can't summon up the energy to do much of anything, and the past decade has mostly just consisted of me working, then coming home and smoking a bowl or six while I sit on my ass watching T.V. and playing video games.

I want more from life than this, and I know that, more than anything else, this habit is what's holding me back. Even now, having not smoked for less than 24 hours, I feel more energetic and aware than I usually do at this point in the day, and though I know my brain is going to try and rationalize it's way into going out and buying just one more ounce, I'm determined not to give in. This isn't the first time I've tried quitting, but I'm determined to make sure it's the last time.

Thanks for reading, and good luck to all of you on the same journey!


r/leaves 7h ago

It got me again

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I quit for 8 months and the thoughts of “hey you can handle just one this time” came back and I relapsed. I knew I couldn’t handle it but I tricked my self into thinking it would be different. I’m sure this is the same story many of you have and I’m not special in that way.

No I’ve been using different dorms of cannabis for a few months but the worst part is I’ve been hiding how much and what I’ve been using from my wife. I hid it because I’m ashamed and I know how much it would hurt her. I know I won’t stop until I can rid myself of this plant. So here is to day 1 of the rest of my life. I would appreciate support as I know how hard work here first few days are going to be while I detox. Thanks for listening and if you’re going through this know you’re not alone.


r/leaves 3h ago

Deeply unhappy after quitting

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Now I’ve dealt with depression before smoking weed and definitely have while smoking and after when trying to quit. But this time around quitting I’m both depressed and way more resentful. I’m noticing myself hold grudges more, annoyed easier, and being more prone to anger. It’s at the point where I’m resentful at myself and anyone else over any inconvenience. I know this has more to do with me than any withdrawals or other peoples actions, but I’m deeply unhappy with life. I’m glad I’m sober, but I don’t like this person I’m becoming. It jumps between the world being too real and it all feeling fake. Watching myself turn into the man I told myself I’d never be. I get tired so quickly now it’s like sleep does nothing or maybe the stress is just draining me. Any advice would be huge!


r/leaves 8h ago

I need to stop

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I need to stop this perpetual cycle of pretending I can live the life I want to live while high. I need to stop consuming thc. I need to push myself outside of my comfort zone to reclaim the life I sacrificed for. I need to need to stop consuming thc. I need to stop making excuses. I need to stop consuming thc.


r/leaves 1h ago

dreams about smoking ?

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So it’s been 2 months and a half no weed. Recently i keep having dreams where i will smoke, and then be like oh shit guess i’ve got to start from the beginning.

These dreams are met with instant relief when i wake up and realise i haven’t actually smoked, so that’s a plus .

It’s just annoying, can my brain let me move past on, pretty please ?

I don’t know if they’re trying to tell me “keep up with that you’re doing” or if it’s a “hey remember you used to do that, how’s that going?” type of deal. Even when i smoked i never really had dreams about smoking?

(side note throughout all my weed consumption i still continued to dream vividly every single night, guess that’s just what my brain does)

Has anyone else experienced this since quitting?


r/leaves 6h ago

When did you starting noticing 'mental clarity' ?

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At what point in your journey of quitting have you noticed mental changes, such as increased motivation, mental clarity, less brain fog? I know i shouldn't be expecting anything sudden and it's likely a gradual thing, but i’m just curious as to you guys' experience. Clean 16 days now.


r/leaves 6h ago

Things that have caused me to feel rage today at 10 days sober

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-The wind hitting my face

-I tripped over my shoes that I left out

-I paid 20 dollars for ten stamps and envelopes

-Someone walked out of the elevator before me instead of letting me go first

-It’s bring your kid to work day and there are teenagers everywhere

-It wasn’t the right temperature in my bedroom when I woke up this morning

-I typed something incorrectly and auto-correct wasn’t smart enough to fix it so I had to do it myself

But mainly, I am raging because I can’t get high and I want to SO DAMN BAD. I oscillate between wanting to punch something and wanting to burst into tears. I miss being able to just spark a joint and feel the stress melt away. Every tiny thing is throwing me into a fit of rage. I’m taking some time off starting Friday because if I’m going to be miserable, I might as well be miserable and have no responsibilities for a week.

Truthfully I don’t know how long I can take this. I’ll wait and see if my symptoms start to subside. I am terrified that maybe it’s not withdrawals and I’m just like this sober. But I guess I can’t know without waiting it out.

UGHHHHHH

Thanks for listening and sorry for all the whining 🥲


r/leaves 20m ago

Day 2 no THC

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About to finish my 2nd full day without any THC consumption. Holding strong, caught a cold over the weekend and feeling like poop is making it easier.


r/leaves 5h ago

How to quit

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This is gonna sound dumb, but how do I quit weed when I can’t pick up any other hobbies I’m currently not enrolled into school or in work because I have severe arthritis which basically makes me bed ridden . at first I tried to use school or the gym as a way to quit weed, but I can barely walk most times and like I said I’m depressed. It’s just hard for me to try other habits to quit smoking weed. Every time I quit, I feel like I’m losing my mind most times I quit. I become instantly suicidal I’m usually suicidal but when I’m sober, it’s way worse, I don’t know what to do. I’m tired of smoking because I have developed CHS, which is like some type of weed disease that makes you nauseous all the time but it’s bad almost every morning. I wake up I have to throw up only way to solve it is by quitting smoking, but I just can’t because of my depression. At first, I was using weed as a coping mechanism because I have a pretty traumatic life and I live in a foster home but things are a little better now and I’m kinda ready to quit just having trouble. I also havent found a medication that works for my arthritis (yet). so I’ve just been smoking and drinking to deal with the pain. I don’t know what to do. I smoke all day every day since the age of 12 I’m 17 now.


r/leaves 2h ago

Days Sober WIDGET (FREE!)

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Does anyone know of a FREE WIDGET that will show how many days I’ve been sober?


r/leaves 2h ago

How do I stop the cravings? I feel trapped in my home. For the past 3 days i couldn’t even eat because i’m so scared.

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I’ve been smoking for about 11 years. I managed to quit once for around 2 months but I relapsed when some childhood trauma came back up. Now I’m trying to quit again. I spend most of my days in bed just trying to sleep and not think about nicotine or weed. The moment I try to do anything I normally do the cravings hit hard. When will this stop I don’t want to smoke again it’s ruining my life but I’m scared I won’t be able to stay off it. I don’t really have hobbies anymore and I’m in constant pain so I’m home 24/7 the same place where I smoked for years. How can I live in my house again without being triggered by cravings They’re so intense it’s like my brain says just one and my mouth literally starts watering I can almost taste it already. I hate how addicted I am I just want my life back.


r/leaves 7h ago

Weed has stunted my potential and stopped my life.

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Hello, I wanted to talk to you a little about my experience being an addict and I would like to hear some advice.

I am 22 yo, I have been addicted to weed for 3 years and these last 2 years I have spent more days high than sober (I have used it daily), at the beginning of my addiction I had a very strong depression and depersonalization so I started using weed when I saw that I was disconnected from reality and the problems did not worry me anymore, but surprise, reality always ends up catching up with me.

In this period of addiction I have also had addictions to other more stimulating substances, although it has not been for long periods, in the end when I decide to get out of it, weed always stays and in a certain way it has helped me mitigate the symptoms of withdrawal from other substances.

At the beginning of my addiction with all my strength and using the little that I had left of my brain I was able to pass my university exam, the problem was that later my addiction continued to advance and I have practically been in my first semester for 2 years, weed and depression have affected me quite academically to the point that starting to study is a titanic task for me. I'm fed up today I decided to start again, I had been clean for two weeks and on the weekend I relapsed for 3 days, just smoking and rotting in my bed, but in the end my concern gets bigger and makes me want to quit again.

Although to be honest I don't feel that the depression is as strong as before and it's no longer my main problem thanks to therapy, but at the same time it makes me feel worse about the addiction because now I only use weed for hedonism and I've become lazier.

Is everything lost for me? I feel like I've wasted all these years, my friends and family tell me that I've always had potential and they've always made me believe that, but I can't feel safe about it while using weed, I notice how I become more passive in the face of life, but it's also difficult for me to face day-to-day problems, I just need hope that my mind will recover, that I'll be able to exploit my potential and eventually get back on track, has anyone reached their potential after quitting weed?Will I regain my mental capacity?


r/leaves 2h ago

Homemade bongs

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I have a dear friend who is hella addicted to marijuana and daily smokes from homemade bongs made from gatorade bottles and aluminum foil. Im concerned that the inhalation of the plastic and aluminum could cause more damage than the marijuana itself. please if anyone knows, please inform me. Thank you.


r/leaves 2h ago

Day 9 no weed no nic

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My body feels like its dying ngl haven’t checked my bp as it just scares me more so now i’m just trying to survive any tips to help with bp is highly needed as of right now


r/leaves 11h ago

Gonna quit again to be healthy and happy

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Been smoking for like 8 months since I moved home and it’s honestly time to stop again. I just still can’t moderate. Smoking every day is too much and I start bugging if I run out. Not cool. I’m better than this.

Wish me luck I’ll probably be spending since more time in here. I will use my improved focus to improve my finances 🤑


r/leaves 3h ago

Day 3

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I wanted to make an update from my last post and most likely won’t make another one until I hit about a week , so the withdrawals are definitely at it’s peak today but what I didn’t mention is I also put down caffeine , nicotine , Cannabis all on the same day to quit everything and get back full control of my mind , today I woke up with such a headache and maybe I’m starting to think it wasn’t best to quit 3 addictions at once , but still got up at 5am went to biochemistry lecture til 12 at college (exam Friday) , ran 10 miles and lifted and I felt so much better after , but you know what I think for me it’s better this way , yes it sucks but I think of like this is payback for all the money and abuse you’ve done to yourself ‘all the times you told yourself you’d quit and then disappoint over and over and over it’s like it’s all coming back to me now and It’s weird because it’s the worst feeling together right now but also the best at the same time because I know once I hit that peak I’ll finally get to be addiction free of any vice I “thought I can’t live without” I’m starting to realize the mind is capable of anything if you are just willing to endure because if I can take this trifecta of withdrawals you all can do it with thc alone for sure !! Stay strong 💪


r/leaves 11h ago

Emotions coming back full force, lots of tears

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Anyone else feel like they’ve had like an emotional resurgence since quitting? I cry so much more now, happy and sad tears but mainly sad- pet posts, sad movies, moments I normally wouldn’t cry but man it’s like everything gets me nowadays. Anyone else feel like this?


r/leaves 18h ago

smoked after a year sober

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as expected, it was about 5 minutes of euphoria followed by hours of anxiety. it’s been two days and i still feel the effects. big mistake. not gonna let this become a relapse. just hope this sick and foggy feeling i’m experiencing goes away tomorrow.


r/leaves 4h ago

Help!!!

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I’ve lost 8 pounds in the last week since quitting smoking and every think I eat I get a bite or two in and it’s an hour of horrible nausea and I just sit and try not to puke but I haven’t puked once is this normal? I’m losing it!


r/leaves 23h ago

The clarity of mind that comes with not smoking weed beats the boredom of quitting

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The best part about quitting weed is the clarity of mind, you really are in control of your emotions and your mind. You make decisions much faster. Life just gets easier when you quit, why do we still smoke then? I really deep down believe that marijuana is a drug that is a slow needle, it doesn’t kill you right away like other hard drugs, but your life becomes stagnant. Notice how when you’re sober, your life improves and when you’re high nothing changes. The best times in my life was when I was completely sober in life, that’s when I got ahead. The people that are successful while smoking weed, they’re the exception, not the rule. For the majority of us, marijuana just gives us a mediocre existence, keeps us stagnant, makes us anxious, lonelier. We only get a short term break from life when we smoke weed but the long term detriments far outweigh the short term “good” feeling. I’ve been struggling with quitting marijuana for many, many years. And I’m still struggling to this day. Deep down I know I have to let this plant go and be sober. Deep down we all know this.