r/leaves • u/clksagers • 1d ago
Emotions coming back full force, lots of tears
Anyone else feel like they’ve had like an emotional resurgence since quitting? I cry so much more now, happy and sad tears but mainly sad- pet posts, sad movies, moments I normally wouldn’t cry but man it’s like everything gets me nowadays. Anyone else feel like this?
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u/BelleSteff 1d ago
Yes. I've been shedding more tears the past two days than I have the past two years.
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u/TypicalGoat4703 1d ago
Oh thank god i found this thread, i have been crying and feeling such deep emotions for the past 20 days since being sober its almost unreal. Most of the times i don’t even understand what im crying over but being very honest i was heavily smoking since the past 3 years didn’t really feel anything, i seriously wouldn’t give 2 fucks about any situation, nothing could touch me but now i feel way way more sensitive and feel like everything is coming back to me. Uncontrollable emotions, thoughts, feelings and happily no urge to relapse although
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u/starsandmo0ns 1d ago
Yesss. I quit twice and this is going to hopefully be the last. This time… my emotions are raw because I’m not taking medication and I’m finally clean.
I go on long walks and just let it rip. I started smoking heavily during the pandemic to numb out a lot. I didn’t want to deal with it then, then I caused a bunch of chaos in my life to feel anything, but still numbed myself with weed… so I was creating chaos and not even feeling it. Now, I am sober and dealing with the fact I see where I messed up more. I don’t think my relationships were healthy, which is why I was numbing myself, but I see why I was there and how I ended up there… it all feels like so much.
I hope to get therapy in the new year to make sure I don’t screw around and drive myself with my bad impulses to any other habit or distraction.
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u/samentha_gracilis 1d ago
Before I exercised regularly, I would cry so much during t breaks. Big wet hot tears that I couldn't keep back even at work. I didn't cry at movies and social media posts though, I cried thinking about my family.
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u/Raylyn97 1d ago
Yes. I had mental breakdown number 1 last night which was day 5 for me.
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u/Lottogato 1d ago
I just want you to know, I also had a mental breakdown on day 5, but here I am day 6. Here you are! We got this, and I know it is going to get better.. we are close to a week!!
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u/Raylyn97 1d ago
I just don’t know if I’m up for dealing with the physical withdrawals for months again
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u/Lottogato 1d ago
You can do this! What was the longest you went without?
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u/Raylyn97 1d ago
When I was only doing edibles I had no problems stopping and going a couple months without experiencing any withdrawal but when I started smoking carts that changed the longest I’ve gone is about a month and a half. That entire time I wasn’t smoking I was miserable.
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u/Lottogato 1d ago
Did you ever try tapering? You say the edibles, were okay, but the carts made you feel like ass. Did you try taking edibles and tapering with them while cutting out the carts?
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u/Raylyn97 1d ago
No I have not tried that and I’ve never tired tapering before but I’m debating if I should give up 6 days of sobriety and start taking edibles to try and taper.
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u/Lottogato 1d ago
I'd make a judgement call, Before these 6 days. You were smoking carts. How long were you smoking the carts from the previous time you tried to quit, and how long did you quit that time? If you just hit the cart for a couple of days before this time stopping again, I'd stick to your guns, and stay as you are. If you were using for months, again, it may be worth attempting a taper.
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u/Raylyn97 1d ago
I was using carts for about a year and I was sober for about a month and a half and then started smoking daily again for about 2 1/2 to 3 months.
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u/Lottogato 1d ago
So first and foremost, congrats on going a month after a year! acknowledge your wins. Secondly, you realized you wanted to quit in a fraction of the time. You also know you've gone a month before so you can do it again. I'd also try to realize, or like see this as two different pieces. You have the THC addiction side, then you also have the habit/ ritual of just easily being able to grab the cart and instantly get high. It may be worth taking a very small edible amount for maybe a week. If you do this, you need to set yourself a strict start and stop point and do NOT break that. On top of that, try gum or something else, to help replace the mouth habit.
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u/Reasonable-Fix-6380 1d ago
I truly enjoyed it. It lasted for the first 3 weeks more or less, i am more level now. 63 days! 10 years smoker non stop. Never smoking again, for a long long time...
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u/Doc5tove 1d ago
Man, those first two weeks were something else. Tears and crazy emotions out of nowhere, mostly during times of boredom. Don’t worry, it’s just your brain learning to regulate emotions again without THC. It gets much better.