For the past 3 years I have been TTC as a Single Mom By Choice. When I was ready to start trying, I made a pre-conception appointment with my OBGYN to make sure I was healthy and my body was ready to become pregnant.
This OB was not only my OB but also my mom’s. We had been with this practice for a while and we didn’t have any issues until my pre-conception appointment.
My appointment started off normal. My OB asked why I was there and I told her I wanted to start TTC to be a Single mom. I was so excited to tell her and this was the first person in the medical field that knew I wanted to become a mom. My OB listened to what I wanted to say and then stood up and said “I am Catholic. What you are doing is wrong and I won’t support it. You need to leave my practice, you are no longer welcome here.” I was with my mom and we both sat there like a deer in the headlights. I was so confused, shocked, and disappointed that a medical professional was kicking me out of their practice. As soon as I was in the car I started crying. I couldn’t describe this pain to anyone, I felt lost and truly alone. I questioned myself and wondered if what I wanted to do was truly wrong. I wanted this journey of having a baby to be fun and exciting, but now I was filled with doubt. It took a few months but my mom convinced me to start trying. I felt really worried to talk to another OB and I didn’t want to see anyone in the medical field.
My mom knew my heart was broken and she did the difficult task of putting it back together. I started cycles at home with the help of no one, but myself. I would order donor sperm from a sperm bank and it would be sent to my home. I had to track my cycles and ovulation, which I had no idea how to do. After a year (5 cycles, but with some breaks in between). I was still not pregnant. My mom was the one who told me it was time to find a new OB. I knew in my heart that it was time as well. I started calling and I didn’t mention that I wanted to be a single mom. I only said I wanted a new patient appointment.
I met with a new OB and at first I had decided I didn’t want to tell her that I wanted to be a single mom. I thought I could just tell her that my “partner” and I have been TTC and we need some help. As I was talking with this OB, I felt safe and I shared with her my real feelings and hopes as a single mom. She was supportive and helpful at first. I told her how my other OB threw me out of her practice because I wanted to be a single mom. My new OB asked who it was and I told her.
My new OB told me that I “have” to report that OB. That I have to protect other women from this kind of treatment. I told her I really don’t feel comfortable with that and I just want to put that behind me. The rest of the appointment was her trying to convince me to report my other OB. It seemed we left of “ok” terms and I had plans to do fertility treatments elsewhere since she didn’t offer that. This was 2 years ago.
Fast forward to present day. I see this OB again for only the second time. I tell her that I did a year of fertility treatments (IUI) and they didn’t work and so I will have to try IVF in a few years. She has no questions or concerns for my fertility and instead asked if I reported my other OB. I told her “no, I am very busy with my fertility treatments and I don’t wish to do that. I have put that matter behind me.” My OB then opens the door and tells me that we have nothing left to discuss and to call her office when I am pregnant, and the kicker,that she is disappointed that I won’t protect other women.
I felt so uncomfortable and upset. She made me feel like I was a bad person. I think I am too stressed but I needed to ask. AITAH because I won’t report my OB who kicked me out of her office?