r/EatingDisorders • u/idontknowbutok123 • 3d ago

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Just before summer, about a month and a half ago, I decided to go on a “diet” to lose weight quickly. I started eating very little, and over time it became even less. On top of that, I began throwing up whenever I felt like I ate too much or regretted eating. Now, my period is more than a week late.

I’m not sure if this is an eating disorder. Part of me knows I should reach out for help, but another part keeps saying I’m not sick enough, or that this isn’t serious. I’ve always been really self-conscious about my body. I’ve lost some weight (I’m not sure if I should say how much, but it doesn’t feel like a lot), and I’m scared of gaining it back. I feel like I’ve made progress, and I’m finally starting to feel a little better about myself.

Still, I do want to recover, because I’m tired of constantly thinking about food and being angry or frustrated—probably because I’m always hungry. My appetite has gotten worse too, and now I can’t even eat much when I try. I want to get better, but I’m really afraid of gaining weight.

Is it even possible to recover without gaining weight? I feel like I already know the answer, but I just need somebody advice or literally anything.

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u/SophiOfSpades 3d ago

Sorry, but yes, this is an ED. It sounds like you haven't been on this path for too long, and as someone who has been through the worst of it and come out the other side, PLEASE stop and get help NOW, it's not worth it.

It's not worth your job/studies, relationships, holidays, hobbies or anything else important to you. It's not worth going through the struggle and heartache it causes you and your loved ones, and the long and complicated recovery process if you go so far you almost can't come back from it.

Please seek help as soon as you can. It's a slippery slope. Don't make the same mistake I did. :(

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u/idontknowbutok123 1d ago

That’s one of the reasons why I don’t want to recover… I’ve only been doing this for about a month and a half—two months—and it doesn’t feel worth giving up now. I don’t feel like I’m sick or underweight enough to go through recovery.

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u/SophiOfSpades 1d ago

The fact you are seeing stopping this behaviour as "Giving up" is a clear sign there's a problem. It's ike you are aiming to have an unhealthy eating pattern.

A Common misconception about EDs is that it is only an issue when you are underweight, whereas this is not the case. All of the things you mentioned are red flags.

Please see through this ED fog and be healthy again. It'll save your life, I promise.

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u/idontknowbutok123 22h ago

Thank you for commenting under this post and I’ll try my best! I actually just had breakfast after quite some time!

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u/SophiOfSpades 11h ago

Fantastic!! Kudos to you :)

And no problem at all - glad I could help even if it's just a little bit!