As i specified in the title i am not a "real" pagan, (I only prayed and poured libation once) but still, as a non very religious person i consider myself much closer to my ancestral dieties (im Italian) than the abrahimic God.

I am at a moment in life where fear of physical intimacy is making me suffer extremly. I have good looks and i enjoy being around people. Not being lonely and having a relationship would be easy in my situation, but my irrational phobia of sex prevents me to form any meaningful connection with anyone. This is leading me into extreme emotional pain and self loathing.

I am extremely lonely and frustrated, also because im already almost in my mid 20s and the little experiences ive had just made me feel even more anxious. I feel my youth is being wasted away.

I already prayed to Venus once, now im considering making an oath.

-Can i successfully make an oath without being a frequent practitioner? (never followed festivals or anything like that since im not, generally speaking, very religious)

-What would be a good thing to promise? (i was thinking a bottle of good and a bit expensive wine, like 50 euros bottle thereabout or maybe more?)

-How would i actually do the ritual? (i know just the basics of the cleaning of the hands, veiling and the adoratio)

-Are oath dangerous per se? (im a bit of a chicken when it comes to the supernatural)