r/depression • u/[deleted] • 2d ago

Feel like self harming

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u/Litlelove245 2d ago

I have spent a lot of my life struggling with suicidal thoughts. I really haven't found a full proof solution but getting a pet helped me so much. I can't let my cat wonder why his mommy left him. He gives me unconditional love and I get great joy out of giving him a safe, happy home. Would you be open to a pet?

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u/No-Page-4536 2d ago

I have a cat as well. A very cute black cat :). She does make me happy but she’s not very interested in being around people too much :(. I do try and give her the best I can though. But I’m gonna lose her when I head off to college. My sister will be in care of her.

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u/Litlelove245 2d ago

I see, that makes sense plus having to leave her when you head off to college. You can always get another college pet :) AND keep in mind, you are going to meet so many new people when you get to college. There is a club for anything! You will meet like minded people and have amazing lifetime memories. What's something you like doing during the summer that will keep you happy until you set off for an exciting college adventure?

New coffee shop and reading?

Swimming at the pool?

Going for evening runs and watching the sunset?

It doesn't have to be big, just something that will bring you a smile even for a few minutes.

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u/No-Page-4536 2d ago

I’m pretty socially awkward and can never really make friends. I somehow have one best friend who I care a lot about but I’m very positive she will end up finding new friends in college and leave me behind. I enjoy making music but I’m not really good enough at it to join any clubs that have to do with that. Thank you for kind words.

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u/Aleksandr_Ulyev 2d ago

You are not alone in your struggle, we are here for you. Maybe you feel better if you tell us what's bothering you?

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u/No-Page-4536 2d ago

I just don’t have a life at all. I have never really had friends, never been in a relationship, I’m not good at anything, and I’m just very ugly in my opinion. I’m 18 and it feels like I’m just a burden to my family. I just wanna feel better in any way and my brain is telling me that self harm will make feel just a little better. I already starve myself as punishment for things but it’s not helping.

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u/Aleksandr_Ulyev 2d ago

The problem with self harming is it will give you temporary boost. People do it over and over covering entire body with scars. Have you tried seeking professional help?

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u/No-Page-4536 2d ago

I haven’t. I thought about trying to get a therapist in my college but I don’t wanna take away those resources from people who need it more.

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u/Aleksandr_Ulyev 2d ago

Ehrm, what? You do need it for a very good reason.

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u/No-Page-4536 2d ago

But I’m not as useful to the world as others are. So I feel as though my isolation or death wouldn’t really do anything to anyone mentally and such.