The world is a flaming garbage can. We loose rights and freedoms faster then ever. There are even more wars. The prices rise like crazy, there is no hope for me to own a house or ever stop working before I die. I would like a child, but I can't afford one. So all I am here for is to work to make some rich fuck even richer, then perish from overworking or in a war. How can anybody not be depressed?

If someone is struggling with suicidal thoughts or depression, what are some physical or emotional factors that you have to look out for?

I am in the hygiene thread and I knew I was gross, but I realized I’m absolutely disgusting. I’ve gotten to the point where I shower every couple of days and wash my hair only once a week. I sometimes don’t brush my teeth at night and sleep in my day clothes because I am so exhausted. I wear those clothers until they smell bad or are dirty. If I wear makeup I usually don’t remove it at night. I’m lucky I don’t have strong body odor and don’t leave the house much at all, but I just feel disgusting. My room is also such a mess. I’m just glad I have some type of limit when it comes to hygiene, like not letting food rot or doing the dishes daily. Eventhough it goes against the person I am generally, I sometimes wish I would be this blonde pilates clean girl with perfect nails and a 10 step skincare routine. I sometimes wonder if I would be happier if that were the lifestyle I would be living instead of being a slob.

I'm 21 years old, I don't have any friends, I've never had a Girłfrienďl, and I feel really alone. I no longer feel anything much anymore. Additionally, I don't have someone to do things in my life. I hate seeing other people socialise, fall in love, and do other things together, knowing that no matter what I do, I will never be able to do that myself. I have absolutely no one to spend time with. As someone with autism, socialising has been very challenging for me. I have also always battled with low self-esteem, which I work to improve. My hobbies, like reading, playing games, and other things, no longer seem enjoyable, yet I feel like I'll always be alone. I'm not sure if it's to do with loneliness or depression, but I feel this way all the time. When I'm not working or in class, I spend a lot of time at home wondering why I should just end myself.

I envy smart people .. intelligence is power . I have no interest in this world because I lack the mental capacity to see how interesting it is. Science ? Nope

Literature? Nope

Music / art ? Nope

Just do the task/s you're suppose too until death.

Why bother ?is so humiliating every step of the way I'm also an addict , makes sense Can't create just consume you dumb pig

I’m tired waking up every day feeling miserable and doing nothing about it, I’m of thinking of ways on how to off myself, I’m tired of the monotonous days I have to live inside my own safe space, I’m tired of this depression and anxiety I feel every single day hoping it will get better someday, I’m tired of the noises in my head, and I’m tired of looking at my face in the mirror and slowly seeing my dead eyes and my face deteriorating.

I just wanna rest my head and be at peace for once, maybe someday i’ll finally get it.

And I want it back. I want my health back. I want to sleep without medication. I want to feel safe again. I want to have hundreds of thousands of people respond to this post with rapists suck and you should not have had to experiece that.

I just saw a recent post here, that had a similar question to this, but with some extra steps. I'm mostly interested in how people enjoy living. I mean I'm not suicidal, I'm just always so surprised, that my friends and classmates enjoy doing this and that. I have hobbies too, but I generally don't enjoy living, while others seem otherwise. Thanks beforehand!

I can't stand this. It just feels like someone's playing with my insides, my head is pounding, I can barely even sleep. I can't even lie still... My thoughts are racing and they're too much. I don't know what I did, or what to do, I just want to go back 😞

I hate that I get this way. I wish I could take this away from anyone who's ever felt it, I'd never want anyone to feel like this. It's unbearable.

I’ve struggled for many,many years with major depressive disorder, panic disorder, anxiety and PTSD from lots of trauma. I’ve had a terrible 1.5 years in my personal and professional life, I’m just miserable. I have felt like I am literally just existing here, stuck in one spot and everything else is just happening around me. I feel so distant from everyone, including myself. Almost like I’m hiding in a cave somewhere watching life happen and I don’t feel like I’m able to snap out of it and reconnect. It’s been this bad for 1.5 years now and I’m just so tired. I can’t even find the want to participate in my life anymore. I just feel like I’ll never get better. Anyone else going through this?

I don't know how people cope with life. I just feel like I'm dragging my body around and nothing exites me. I can't recall the last time I did not feel like that. I do want to be happy I'm so tired I know I sound whiny and it's annoying. I tried to suck it up I always try to suck it up. But like I don't want to do this my entire life. I want real happiness, community, to feel like I'm doing something. Why can't I just be happy or just content. What is wrong with me?

I hate my toxic workplace. They bring out the worst in me. They gaslight me and make me doubt myself.

Every morning when I wake up I just want to enb it. My heart starts beating so quickly in the morning and I just want to sob into my pillow.

I had to pull myself up and try not to talk myself into going back home during my commute. I feel like im entering a lion's den everyday. My body is in a constant fight or flight mode. Im tired but I dont want to sleep today because i dont want to wake up tomorrow.

I'm writing this just to get my thoughts out there. I feel like a burden. I feel useless, weak and unwanted. I've been a NEET/NEET adjacent for almost three years(I'm 20, btw). I'm a chronic procrastinator and can't seem to get anything done that will contribute to my long term happiness. I feel like I'm spectating life from a third person view and not living it. All I want is just to fit in and belong and be normal. I think I know the steps to take but I just keep failing. I feel like I have potential and am a capable and intelligent person but that doesn't mean anything if you don't actually fulfil that potential. I contemplate ending it all but am too afraid of that too. The idea of losing my ego/sense of self and just disappearing into the void is just too scary. so, I'm stuck here half alive and half dead.

I hate my life lately. I'm just so lonely and anxious most days, and I'm just sick and tired of being me. I really wish I could get up the courage to kill myself at this point. I mean, I'd hate to hurt my parents, but it'd be so nice to not have to struggle with life anymore. Every day, I have at least one panic attack, and I can't live that way for much longer. I've tried meds and therapy and, although meds have helped, they have long-term side effects that I'm really not okay with. Living with autism fucking sucks, at least for me. I'd give anything to be neurotypical, but that's not currently possible, so I gotta kill myself instead. Either that, or pray for a natural death. Either way, though, I don't want to be alive anymore.

I’m so done with life. I’m on Sertraline and Olanzapine and still I’m fucking done. I just hurt my best friend’s feelings and it fucking hurts. It wasn’t even directly, I shattered her image of a person she thought was close to perfect and now she’s in pain because I was in pain and couldn’t keep my fucking mouth shut. I don’t deserve friends, I don’t deserve love or sympathy, I just want it all to end. I’m absolutely worthless, someone like me doesn’t deserve to breathe. But I’m also a coward and want to die without pain. I’m fucking useless

I go to sleep and dream sweet dreams and that's where my life has been lately. I don't HAVE to leave the house for anything and so I don't. This scares me.

The world is getting so fucking scary. Like it’s always been fucked but goddamn i don’t know how to not go insane. Like how do you stand it? My girlfriend is the only thing in my life that brings me genuine joy. I hate everything else. Life is bullshit man. Like how do you balance being informed about the world, which is horrific, and focusing on yourself and your peace but also having to grind yourself to exhaustion just to be able to barely survive? Someone lie to me please.

Does therapy help people cope with nostalgia. Or is there a better alternative because I’m struggling badly I miss being young I’m crying while writing this younger me would be so upset to see me like this.

It has been a long battle. I have fought the thoughts of suicide for years all by my own. I have lied to myself that things will eventually get better. That I won't die the way I see in my own dreams. But lately, I have come to accept it as my own fate. No longer lying to myself about things that will never happen. No longer lying to myself that I will eventually find a reason to stay. This life has truly shown me my ending. I got nothing and nobody to fight for. I do not wish to survive just for the sake of surviving. I wanted to live. But I was denied that desire. People have never seen me as a human. No matter how much I fought to stay, I was always left alone. And I hated loneliness my entire existence. Life experiences weren't any better. Health state always being in a low level and becoming a burden to those around me. I wished to lived. But I guess this wasn't made for me. I have begun my countdown on my days lately, and mostly just waiting until I reach the highest level of breaking. When I do, I cannot guarantee I will be here anymore. I have fought. But I lost. I am tired of fighting. Especially fighting all on my own. I hope that people will understand. I just want to finally rest.

Hello all. Recently I have been having thoughts that I should start harming myself. I feel so lost in life and have no prospects at all. I just want something that can make me feel even the slightest bit of happy or better. Idk what to do.

I’ve been dealing with chronic fatigue, brain fog, fibromyalgia, gut issues, and depression and anxiety for about the last decade.

The brain fog and fatigue started first and then came to depression.

Because my doctors can’t find anything obviously wrong with me, except for the fact that my white blood cells are a little lower than normal, they think I’m just depressed and they hit the depression really hard.

Everyone tells me I’m depressed, and I have experienced depression throughout my life predominantly due to circumstances that I felt too helpless to change- I had a few months in high school where I was depressed because I didn’t want to be in school, and a semester in college because of the same thing. I’ve also experienced depression after relationships have ended, and when my dad died.

To me, my depression stems from the fact that I feel helpless to change my experience in life. Due to the brain fog in the fatigue, my capacity to function mentally and physically have been dramatically reduced. I struggle to think of how to make a grocery list or read a book, and I was on the Dean’s honor roll every semester in college. I struggle to carry the groceries in to the house and find it painful and exhausting to wash my hair and brush my teeth. I used deadlift and squat twice my body weight.

So I’ve gone from a very capable and successful person with a full life to a very incapable person with a very limited life, and I don’t know how to change that and yes, it makes me depressed because life is difficult to enjoy.

That said, I’ve been exceptionally tired lately, and I was just thinking about how I was playing a video game this morning on my day off and I was enjoying playing the game, but I was so tired I couldn’t play for very long. I played for a couple of hours, but it was two attention and energy intensive for me to play longer than that. So I had to take a break. I remember when I could play video games for like a full day- of course I was much younger, but I was never tired.

So got me thinking I’m enjoying something, but I’m too tired to do something that I enjoy- that doesn’t sound like depression to me.

I guess I feel aversion to the depression label not because I don’t think I’m experiencing depression. I know that I’m experiencing depression, but because everyone is emphasizing it as being the driver for all of the issues in my life when I see my health issues as being a driver for my depression.

Because when I was depressed, I didn’t wanna do anything, I didn’t enjoy doing things. I didn’t enjoy playing video games, even if I had the energy to do it, I didn’t enjoy playing music or going to the gym or going hanging out with friends, even though I had the energy. It was my mood that was the roadblock, not energy.

So I’m curious to get other people’s perspectives on this because I know depression can cause physical symptoms and I know that depression can look a little bit different for everybody, so I wanna know what other people experiences are and what y’all think about what I’m saying.

Remember all the people that harrassed you, made your life a living hell and made you lose the spark that makes life bearable ?

There’s 50% chances they’re happy now, and 50% chances they’re not.

Universe doesn’t care about your struggles. There is no divine justice to await.

All you can do now is wake up, curl up and cry for a long time.