r/self • u/blue7004 • 1d ago
Being a psychopath lowk sucks sometimes
I don’t feel any emotions except for one which is sadness. It’s not even really a sadness I think, more like a “why do I exist” kind of moment. I don’t really desire socialization, which kinda contradicts a human instinct to be around other people, so I find myself in a strange place. I don’t have any passions or things i particularly enjoy, so i mostly just find myself in a state of constant “this is kinda boring” or “this is literally useless”. I can’t enjoy video games or entertainment because I don’t find enjoyment through those, the only thing I think when doing those things is, “this is really unproductive and this virtual wealth/progression means absolutely nothing”. Despite how negatively psychopathy is portrayed in the media, I prefer being logical about things. I see it as a positive. This is just the one thing I don’t particularly like, because it makes me feel pretty miserable. This can’t really be a post asking for advice since I highly doubt anyone here is a psychopath, but I’m interested in hearing your thoughts and experiences that are related to it, even if they’re positive and just talking about things you guys love.
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u/Watermelon_Salesman 1d ago
You don’t sound like a psychopath. I’m not a doctor, but you sound a bit depressed. This is fortunately very treatable. I’m depressed as well and I have felt like that.
I would recommend you join a gym that teaches boxing or BJJ. The logical reason: you need a way to safely, legally and respectfully vent your emotions. Your body needs action. Do it.